I have now setup a second blog, Mightier Than the Sword, to put my poems, lyrics, stories, and other writing projects out there for you to see a bit easier. If you were reading "Redemption", (sorry for the lack of update...again...), I will repost it there and put further updates on that blog. :)
Please read and comment! I will start out by posting some OLD stuff I found in a notebook, and we'll go from there.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Amazed by My Own Words...
having a convo with a friend...and i'm totally in awe of my own words. Need to document them here for future reference...:)
X: im not sure i deserve anything though...only one really deserved and He wasnt even given the life He deserved, what makes us think we will be given a life we dont deserve?
Me: because He loves us and gave up His life so we could have life
it's not about deserving it
when you love someone, you want what's best for them, whatever it costs you
that's what He wants
____________________________
Me:and as far as hurting goes...well...we aren't in heaven...nothing is going to be easy
love is patient, kind, etc...and hurts like hell
lol
X: i know...but it works out for soooo many people...why am i so different, or you, it's not been exactly a picnic for you either, ............... why are we so much different than the rest??
Me: it's not easy for anyone, to be honest. some handle it better. that, and, God gives us the life He knows we can handle. somehow, we go through these trials for a reason. and sometimes we set ourselves up for them
all those hard questions will be answered when we see Him...and it'll make sense. right now, our minds can't comprehend the reasoning behind events in our lives though, and we just have to trust that He has our best in mind
and will carry us through the shitty times
X: but what if i fail? what if i find i cant handle it anymore, and cop out of life, then ill go straight to hell which im too afraid to do...afraid to live and afraid to die, what kind of like is that?
Me: i don't think people who commit suicide go straight to hell
if they are that desperate, they can't be thinking correctly
and why would you do that anyway? the world didn't end because your gf broke up with you
i know it sucks but...there's still life to live
and if she thinks you guys could get back together...well...there's hope left isn't there?
you have to cling to whatever hope you can find
that's what i think anyway
_____________________________________________________
X:so i invested time and energy into it...i trusted, is that a bad thing?
Me: of course not!
but when you do that, when you put yourself out there, you always run the risk of getting hurt
that's part of life. just by living, you run the risk of getting hurt
but by quitting, you lose out on all the wonderful things God has planned for you
remember, Christ suffered too, He can listen and help more than anyone
X: wonderful things? -looks around- i see a large desert, and looking into the past, i see one there too...maybe im being ungrateful, but im human and prone to it. im also learning that maybe the best form of self defense is preventative...to not put yourself in those situations to begin with
Me: that is an option. but i think you're ignoring a lot of the good things to have happened in your life. and that's easy to do, so i'm just going to give you time to take off your dark sunglasses and remember how blessed you are
it's easy to get lost in the bad, i know
i do it constantly no
now*
lol
but there are plenty of wonderful things, don't regret the good things
X: i only regret their sudden disappearance, not the things themselves
Me: well, this is how i think...each relationship i've had has been better than the last, and i just tell myself, God has something amazing in store for me...so if that wasn't it...it has GOT to be good!!!
lol
anything can be that way
if it goes, that's because you don't actually need it, and there must be something better
or because somehow your life needs to change
shrugs
____________________________________________________
Me: you can't fix everyone
He can
let Him do His job
you aren't superman
Me: He knows what's best, don't fight Him
Me: you don't have to move mountains
well, sometimes our questions can't be answered right away, or the answer is unclear in our minds
Me: maybe you need to learn to surrender your whole life, every aspect, to Him...to trust Him with the hard stuff
Me: i've said what i can...the last thing i can say is that none of us have or will suffer what Christ did, we can only be thankful that He took that for us, and that we have the chance to live, learn, love, and eventually be with Him
if life were supposed to be easy...what would be the point
X: im not sure i deserve anything though...only one really deserved and He wasnt even given the life He deserved, what makes us think we will be given a life we dont deserve?
Me: because He loves us and gave up His life so we could have life
it's not about deserving it
when you love someone, you want what's best for them, whatever it costs you
that's what He wants
____________________________
Me:and as far as hurting goes...well...we aren't in heaven...nothing is going to be easy
love is patient, kind, etc...and hurts like hell
lol
X: i know...but it works out for soooo many people...why am i so different, or you, it's not been exactly a picnic for you either, ............... why are we so much different than the rest??
Me: it's not easy for anyone, to be honest. some handle it better. that, and, God gives us the life He knows we can handle. somehow, we go through these trials for a reason. and sometimes we set ourselves up for them
all those hard questions will be answered when we see Him...and it'll make sense. right now, our minds can't comprehend the reasoning behind events in our lives though, and we just have to trust that He has our best in mind
and will carry us through the shitty times
X: but what if i fail? what if i find i cant handle it anymore, and cop out of life, then ill go straight to hell which im too afraid to do...afraid to live and afraid to die, what kind of like is that?
Me: i don't think people who commit suicide go straight to hell
if they are that desperate, they can't be thinking correctly
and why would you do that anyway? the world didn't end because your gf broke up with you
i know it sucks but...there's still life to live
and if she thinks you guys could get back together...well...there's hope left isn't there?
you have to cling to whatever hope you can find
that's what i think anyway
_____________________________________________________
X:so i invested time and energy into it...i trusted, is that a bad thing?
Me: of course not!
but when you do that, when you put yourself out there, you always run the risk of getting hurt
that's part of life. just by living, you run the risk of getting hurt
but by quitting, you lose out on all the wonderful things God has planned for you
remember, Christ suffered too, He can listen and help more than anyone
X: wonderful things? -looks around- i see a large desert, and looking into the past, i see one there too...maybe im being ungrateful, but im human and prone to it. im also learning that maybe the best form of self defense is preventative...to not put yourself in those situations to begin with
Me: that is an option. but i think you're ignoring a lot of the good things to have happened in your life. and that's easy to do, so i'm just going to give you time to take off your dark sunglasses and remember how blessed you are
it's easy to get lost in the bad, i know
i do it constantly no
now*
lol
but there are plenty of wonderful things, don't regret the good things
X: i only regret their sudden disappearance, not the things themselves
Me: well, this is how i think...each relationship i've had has been better than the last, and i just tell myself, God has something amazing in store for me...so if that wasn't it...it has GOT to be good!!!
lol
anything can be that way
if it goes, that's because you don't actually need it, and there must be something better
or because somehow your life needs to change
shrugs
____________________________________________________
Me: you can't fix everyone
He can
let Him do His job
you aren't superman
Me: He knows what's best, don't fight Him
Me: you don't have to move mountains
well, sometimes our questions can't be answered right away, or the answer is unclear in our minds
Me: maybe you need to learn to surrender your whole life, every aspect, to Him...to trust Him with the hard stuff
Me: i've said what i can...the last thing i can say is that none of us have or will suffer what Christ did, we can only be thankful that He took that for us, and that we have the chance to live, learn, love, and eventually be with Him
if life were supposed to be easy...what would be the point
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