Thursday, September 27, 2007

Right Where I Belong

Just had to share some wonderful things I ran into today...

Kathryn Larson
Kristine Larson
Mueller

You know you're where you belong when you run into names eeriely close to yours or someone close to you. ;)
When I saw the first one, I thought, did they mess up my name that badly? lol
And I was excited when the last name Mueller popped up somewhere. ;)

Mmm...no posts until Monday, I don't think...maybe late Sunday...leave for the fall retreat after class tomorrow. YAY

And it's lovely and cold at night now...so...camping in the cold! WOOHOO!!! lol

Bundled up, but comfy,
Chellechen

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Redemption Installment 3

DISCLAIMER: this will seem "political" at one point, possibly, but it's NOT. the meaning will be seen at the end, do not assume I am bashing people or cultures, I am simply writing a story. the end will show you what i mean by the whole.
Also, grammar will not be perfect. this is all a first draft. who knows how I may change things in the end. you are blessed to see my messy beginning. ;)


*See my posts Redemption Installment 1 and 2 for the beginning of the story.




The man held up a hand to silence her. “We have obviously upset you,” he said in that grainy, mechanical voice. Joanne shivered. “We must beg your forgiveness and ask you how we can help you.”
Joanne stared at the man in complete and utter awe.
“Forgiveness? What can you do for me?” She shook her head. “I don’t get it. I almost killed your leader, and you’re asking ME for forgiveness?”
The light blue man blinked once, seemingly unfazed by her bewildered questions. “What exactly upset you? We must know that before we can do anything to help you.”
Joanne’s eyes filled with tired tears as she wished for some end to this nonsense. “Those two men, they said you were going to destroy Earth,” the light blue man actually reacted to this. His eyes enlarged, and he stiffened even more.
“This bothers you?” There was a hint of hesitation in his voice.
Joanne nodded feebly. “Of course it does, though I’m not sure I believe it. I mean, this whole thing is bizarre,” she tried to laugh but had to suck in a deep breath to prevent more tears from falling. “Can I just go home now, this is too much for me,” she pleaded with the blue man.
He made no reply, instead he hit a button on the table in the room they had entered and clicked into the air. He paused and watched Joanne closely. “There will be someone here shortly to speak with you. For now, the mission has been cancelled.”
Though Joanne had no idea what he was talking about, his sudden change in mannerism was comforting. His mechanical voice seemed softer somehow, and she saw actual concern in his eyes. Perhaps it wasn’t for her, but it was good to know she wasn’t surrounded by a bunch of highly technologically developed but insensitive creatures.
A sudden jolt shook the room. Joanne screamed, her body hitting the long table in front of her hard. The blue man kept his balance and rushed to her side, lifting her gently and awkwardly. He let go of her quickly, his eyes probing into hers. “Are you good?” Joanne nodded, ignoring his bad grammar. “Then come,” he held open the door for her. “They are here.”
Joanne followed him to a room near the one she had first come from. A bit bewildered, she stood before a large steel door, imprinted with random symbols and what looked like numbers flashing by on a thin screen at eye level. Her escort pressed a button on the wall and clicked rapidly. The door shook and opened, revealing a huge gymnasium-like arena. As they walked inside, Joanne made the assumption that this was some sort of hangar; various small aircraft, or what she assumed to be aircraft, lined the walls which had huge doorways, some opened, some closed.
Feeling a bit like she was in a Star Wars episode, Joanne wandered down to the end of the hangar with the blue man. Not paying attention to where she was going, she bumped right into him and fell silently to the ground. Looking up, she gasped, as before her a ramp was lowered from an enormous spherical shaped, thing. There was no name for it but UFO. It was sleek and black, rounded like a ball, but much bigger than anything used for transport on Earth. Still on the ground, Joanne watched as these strangely colored people exited the orb in strict rows, two by two, as if exiting the ark. The first people to exit were a light red color, almost pink, and as more came the shades of red became darker, like a box of crayons with varying hues. After red came blue, and soon the blues appeared almost black from afar. Then, there was a lull in the movement, and everyone grew still, eyes focused on the empty ramp.
All that was missing from the moment was dramatic music. A woman, dressed in black robes, with skin the deepest, shining blue imaginable, walked elegantly down the ramp, her head held high, her eyes focused straight ahead. Every knee hit the floor as she walked past, every head was bowed, and the very air held still as she walked past. Joanne looked up awkwardly from her position on the ground as the woman approached her. When her feet were inches from Joanne’s face, the woman stopped and gazed down at her with powerful gray eyes. Joanne swallowed hard, scrambling to get up into the standard kneeling position she guessed was necessary to take in this woman’s presence. But before she could complete the maneuver, the woman before her had whisked gracefully into the very position Joanne had been attempting to make. Startled, Joanne glanced around her as a rustle of bodies moved to mimic the woman’s. Joanne crouched awkwardly, gawking at all the people bowing to her. If she hadn’t been so confused and upset about everything going on, it would have been almost comical.
Random, urgent clicking awoke her from her reverie. The dark woman had begun murmuring unintelligible things at her. Joanne shook her head, trying to let her know that she didn’t understand a word, or click, she was saying. Confused, the woman looked to the blue man who had led Joanne here, who clicked rapidly to her. Nodding, the woman rose and offered Joanne her hand. The woman’s grip was strong and firm, but her hands were small and smooth, Joanne wondered what sort of position she held for these people.
In a commanding, but smooth voice the woman said, “Come, we have much to discuss.”

Just Another Wednesday

Just thought i'd drop by and say hello!
lol

Not much to mention, again. I was trying to suffer through West Civ reading...ugh...i'll go back and do more soon. It's just sooooooo hard to read. I mean, it's boring. And history is exciting, or at least remotely interesting! Couldn't the people who write the books make it more that way? Occasionally they mention something, and I'm like, whoa, cool, and then I'm back to "so and so did such and such and he was great." yay...lol

It's all good though. The biography we're reading on Napoleon for the next exam is interesting. And I think I have a good essay format in mind. ;)

soooo...other than that..we adopted a lot today. cleaned up the parking lot behind our hall. woohoo. apparently bushes are a good place to store used beer cans. *shrugs*

speaking of cans...we're collecting tabs. soup tabs, pop tabs *eek, i said pop!*, beer tabs....tabs...so...if you love me, i mean...love UND, and Ronald McDonald house, send me some! lol ;)

Back to the books...
Chelle

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Cold Tuesday

at last, cold. lol
it's been cold, but yesterday was a disappointment, so today made up for that.

um...hmmm...
well, i could be truthful and say i didn't do well on my Western Civ exam last week. guess it's too late to say otherwise now. lol
i'm going to do TONS better on the one coming up in about a month...lol. i'm going to whip out my mad AP English skills. I wasn't too sure about how he wanted these essays...and that day was not my day either...i was quite tired...lol. so...next time should be better. ;)
though i will say this, getting an A in that class will be a challenge. he has given one A in...who knows how long! lol

mmm...i finished my bio studying...just have west. civ left...*sigh*...but it's evening...time to write! lol
right before my hall gov meeting that is.

laters!!!

Dein,
Chellechen

Monday, September 24, 2007

Dreary Monday

boo
as if Monday wasn't bad enough by itself, let's make it icky, warm, cloudy, and drizzily.
i would be ok if it would just RAIN. come on sky, BE A MAN!!! lol
rain is great. it depresses me though when it's wimpy rain that isn't even rain. like clouds just spitting on you.
and today was too warm. i hate warm and wet. i know it sucks to be cold and wet, but then you can cuddle up somewhere and feel better. i have to come to my room, put on shorts and a tank, and keep the fans on
yuck
lol
mmm...just another day really. a lady came by and talked about co-op in our psych class. i should look into that. could be fun.
other than that...not much going on. though i do feel hug deprived. i once heard you should get 15 hugs a day to be really healthy. yeah...i've gotten...oh...at most 10 hugs in the month I've been here.
WHOA...a month. over a month. wow. hard to believe how fast things start going. mmm
went to Grandma's over the weekend. she liked my value drawing of one of her thimbles that i did for art class. ;) i don't like it so much, but whatever. lol
in art today we had to bring our own subjects, well, not HAD to, but it was encouraged. so i just used my cell phone. lol. at least that goes kind of fast. we have to draw it 5 times. i'm on my third one.
so, nothing left to report really. fall retreat this weekend!!! i'm excited for that.
and i downloaded 50 songs! i got 50 free downloads from my Rent ticket. that makes it even more worth it! lol
Native may go with me to see Rent. we'll see...lol
Well, I love you all!
OH!!! Just because I didn't have Bible study doesn't mean I can't have my weekly report!
Raincloud: KK (old nickname i had for my sis) and the Jeans are splitting up. ;(
Sunshine: A whole bunch of people from F-world called me this weekend. ;) 'Twas fun.
And now, I leave you.
TTFN,
Chelle

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Offensive

Last night was rough for me. With bad news comes crappy emotions.

Worst part? It's not my pain I feel. I feel the pain I imagine others must have, and I cry for them. Because nothing is wrong with me, it's the ones I love I worry about. And that makes the hurt even deeper.

I wrote a lot. Just to let my emotions out.
The sad thing is, if I posted them here, people would be angry/upset with me. Because the things I wrote about are rarely spoken. It wasn't bad, it's just...the elephant in the room no one talks about.
Truth is people, it happens, and we have to acknowledge that. Otherwise, we'll never get over it. And, it'll happen again and again, and the "elephant" will just grow...until eventually you CAN'T ignore it, and it's hard to get rid of.

*shrugs*

I firmly believe that we have to press on, and somehow deal with those times.

my way of dealing? writing.

so, to prevent more family problems, and to spare people's feelings, my writing will be posted another time. ;)

*hugs* I just hate feeling other peoples pain. Because then I don't know when to stop!!! lol

Lovingly yours,
and one day willing to share my heart,
Chelle

PS I'm praying for you all! Remember:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 21:11

PPS I know some will say "We love you anyway, don't be afraid to share," well, trust me, this can wait. ;) i'm dealing with my feelings, and others are dealing with other things...so...now is not the time to share. lol.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Where to go...

I came up with this analogy while I was walking back to my dorm.

I'm swimming in the ocean right now, and I've spotted a few bits of land that look pretty promising for me, but I need to keep swimming and scope out the whole area before I settle on any one "island" or shore.

I'm talking about majors, and jobs, and life decisions. I met with a lady in the Education dept. just a few minutes ago, it was helpful. I am definitely going to see how far I can go with the German stuff, which means I need to take one more test and then start figuring out my classes and such, which I basically know all ready, it just depends if I place out of any more. ;)

So, yeah, I need a psych class for sure next semester...and we'll see how I feel about that.
As long as I'm working with kids, I'll be happy. lol

One thing I have to do no matter what, write. Even if I'm the only one who likes it...lol. though, I hope to get at least one story or something I write out there before my time is up. I have plenty of ideas. It's just a trick of finding time and energy to write it all out. ;)

So, yep. Nap time, then studying, AIM meeting, more studying, and hall gov, and sleep, and then it's tomorrow. lol

LOVE LOVE LOVE,
CHELLE