Happy New Year!!!

2008!!! ;)

First songs of the New Year? Veggie Tales of course!!!

now off to bed...:P

Summer Time New Years

How does this work? December 31, New Year's Eve...and it's 70 something degrees...*groan*

Gross. I'm totally not going to be ready for it when i get back to school. talk about totally shock...lol

anyway, kind of...busy and distracted right now, but thought i'd leave a post here saying i had a pretty good break, but it'll be nice to get back to the life i had before...sort of...
things will be interesting...*shrugs*

anyway, Happy New Year everyone!!!

Bob is a TOMATO NOT a CAT

I don't know if you all were aware of "my" kitty Pepper...



he hung around our house a lot in the months before I left for school...and I fed him, played with him...I'm pretty sure that when I woke up to cat fights outside our house it was him and the evil cat across the street...lol

Anyway, he was such a cutie...I hated leaving...but I figured, he's not mine anyway...

BUT GUESS WHAT!?!?!?!

We *momma and I* were walking Spice, and we were almost home, when she spotted a kitty. So of course, we needed to avoid it, but then I realized...It's Pepper!!! So I gave Momma the leash, and Pepper and I start conversing *yes, we talk* and walking to each other. He immediately threw himself at my feet and rolled over and over in some dirt...lol. He talked to me, I pet him, and I slowly make my way down the road. With Pepper trotting behind me.
So I'm meowing at my long lost kitty, calling him to come a little faster cuz he's taking his sweet time, when a guy comes out of one of the houses on the corner and yells, "The cat's name is Bob!"

*dramatic pause*

Pepper=Bob

uh...no. LOL

Bob? Bob is a talking red tomato on TV...Pepper is the black and white cat who I simply adore...

Well, whatever. I now know where he belongs. Having heard his "name" (he's still Pepper to me...) he ran off to the guy...

i'm just excited that he remembered me!!! Seriously...we made eye contact...and he hustled over like he used to.

*tears of joy*

YAY PEPPER!!! ;)

Various

@ Grandma and Grandpa Y's house.
Grandpa, Grandma, "Auntie M", Me, Momma



Cute setup at their house...dunno...i felt like taking pics...;)




Grandma asked me to take a pic of this. I like the way it turned out. She thought she should have moved the swan, but i kind of like it!!!

Couldn't resist...lol

Dianne's piggy!!! Went to the barn with her today...soooo cute!!! I want one!!! *lol*

Piggies in the bath trying to bite each other...

Cute little hedgie!!!

He's sleeping in my lap right now. SOOOOO adorable

Sleep Like a Baby

*yawn*
For some reason, I'm tired.
Didn't help that we went shopping. I'm like a little baby who gets all fussy after shopping.

Playing a game with Mel now...supper time!!! ;)

Well, I wanted to say that I'm home, safe and sound, and warm. ;)

Here's a pic of Me, Mel, and Connelley going to our youth group's "tacky winter ball" this past Sunday.



well, I'll try to type more later. got more pics from going to my grandparent's today.

sleepily yours,

die kleine Chellechen

Pics

Realized I didn't post pics from Fall Retreat...hahaha...or the lovely inspired song I wrote. Soooo...without further ado...IV Fall Retreat 07!!! (actually, just pics of land...haha...didn't take people pictures...i tend to do that...;))

Minnesota landscape. Contrary to popular belief, I actually do find it quite lovely.

Pretty trees. don't know what else to say...this is where we were staying.

YAY!!!

Nice retreat spot I found. Ended up coming back for my "retreat of silence"

Same, different direction...

SKY!!!

YAY FALL!!!

Purdy

I think I did post my song...hmmm...oh well...here it is again...

if i didn't, here it is for the first time!!!

"Enough" (dunno what else to call it...lol) <----- (no that's not part of the title, neither is this)

As the wind

Rolls across the Earth

So Your love
Rolls over my soul
As the sky

Fills my eyes above

So Your grace

Overflows my cup

And I am in love

I am in awe

Of all that You have done
Of all that You are doing
For Your love

Is enough
To get me through my life and trials

And Your grace

Is enough
To give me strength and understanding

When I'm falling

As I live

As I breathe

Let my life be Your work

As I stumble

As I crawl

Let Your holy hands lift me to Your heart

And I, I am in love

I am in awe

Of all that You have done

Of all that You are doing

Your word
Is enough

It gives me courage when I falter

And I'm falling
And I, I am in love

Your wind it rushes over me and moves me
I am in awe

Your grace it lifts me higher than my struggles

For I am weak

And You are strong

I am dumb

You are my song

As the wind

Wraps around the earth

So Your love
Wraps around my heart

And I, I am in love

I am in awe

Of all that you have done

All that you are doing

You, You are enough

Enough to lead me
Enough to save me

Enough to love me

You, You are enough

And I am in love

I am in awe

Ok, pretty sure i DID post it...BUT...it's nice to repeat it...right now. ;)

First off, *sigh*, that moment...i had soooo much peace. And singing that song was like...amazing!!! lol. Just like a little secret between God and I...not any more but..lol.

And of course, that trip was when...well...I first felt that tug that said..."get out, change things!!!" And I started to, but not the way I knew I should have. Obviously, I was afraid, despite the words of my song. He is and was enough, but I was a little, freaked out.

So, now what's different? Well, FINALLY, I am working more in the direction I felt Him pulling me before. So, as I surrender, fully this time, it's interesting to reflect on that moment i first knew i had some changing to do.

Thank God I had more than one chance...lol. He knows I needed it. ;)

Oh!!! And that pic of "The Kiss" that I posted...yeah...not the one I did. haha. I'll get that one back sometime tomorrow, and i'll take a pic or something for all of you to see my lovely work. ;)

Hmmm...my room is too warm...man, i'm going to have a rough time (temp wise) back home!!! ;)

*kisses*

Chelle

Snow Suits and Finals, Oh Happy Day!

Note to self: Do not raise children in snowy environment, or at least where snowsuits are necessary

Seriously, putting snowsuits on the kids yesterday was crazy. Then again, there were 9 of them and 2 of us to dress them. And practically everyone wanted me to help them. Lol. They're cute. One little boy, he was so random. He acted like I had never been there before or something, but he was infatuated with me!!! "Will you go outside with us?" Um...duh kid...I'm always going where you guys go...lol..."Will you eat snack with us?" Kid...I give you your snack...and eat the leftovers...hehe. Well, he got a little too crazy about hanging on me...ran into me when I was bending to pick something up...yeah...still have a bump on my head. Pretty sure he might too.
But it was adorable when his dad came to get him. He's putting on his coat and the kid looks at me with big, beautiful, sad blue eyes, "Bye, I'll miss you." AWWWWWWWWWWWWW
lol

Today...pretty relaxing. *gleam* Turned in my art stuff...FINALLY...lol. My abstract pic of myself...*shudder*...took me a while because I couldn't bear to look at it!!! Seriously, it's gross. Then again, so is my representational pic. Everyone in class was like, "WHOA!!! It looks just like you!!!" and I have to agree...if i was on DRUGS!!! *dramatic sigh* ;)

my assignment with 8 different media or whatever...i changed it to "The Kiss":





Only did a part of it...kind of a close up on the faces. It looks alright. Grandma was in love with it!!! haha. I should frame it and give it to her. ;) Except I can do better. I think it looks weird, mostly because there's 8 different things going on. Lol

I have an hour and a half until psych. And then we're doing the eval, and turning in our final vitae, resume, and educational plan.

In the meantime, I think I'll clean and pack...my room is an absolute mess...as usual!!! ;)

Then, history time...and bio if i'm satisfied with that.
I'm kind of sad...there was a review session, which i forgot about anyway, that got moved to tomorrow...during my work hours. *sigh* whatever. Bio isn't too hard. haha...knock on wood...;)

Soon, i'll be home!!! You have no idea how happy I am!!!

And contrary to my LAST post, I am taking my life into my own hands, for a moment anyway. And I'll need my parents and friends to help me. Because I know I'll be hurting the next few weeks. But in the end...I'll be happy...happier than I've been in a loooooong time. ;)

*hugs and kisses*

Love you guys!!! See some of you soon!!! (not soon enough!!!)

Dein immer,

Chelle

A nice reminder for finals week...

*dramatic sigh*

Well, I have given up on trying to "make up my mind" and take life into my own hands.
When I look at it at first, it seems so easy. So obvious. But it isn't that simple. There is no black and white...it's all muddled grays...and they all blend in to each other...there's no clear cut way.


Thank God I'm still young. lol. As Grandma tells me, I don't have to figure it all out now. Good thing too, because if I had to, I think my solution would to be to live on an uncharted island, all by myself...


*sigh* Another thing...but this I can control to some extent...stupid class schedule for next semester. I gave up waiting for people to do their jobs. However, if it happens again, they will get my full wrath. After a year of my going to school here they should have all my credits in...*shrugs*

So instead of waiting to get into my 2 psych classes, I enrolled in 2 art classes. Makes my schedule a little lighter actually, and I'll have some interesting times in art...lol. I wanted an art class anyway.
And it works out, I can take those other two classes any time really. Just annoying that after we made a big deal of getting my credits here over the summer, they have them, but on paper...

If you are running your whole system by computer...put them on the &%*^* computer!!! *grumble*

People annoy me...



On a side note, parental units, we have much to discuss when I come home for Christmas. Some I may not even let you discuss...I'm going to say, this is the way it is, just thought you should know. lol. Nothing too serious, just...some things I need help with, others I figure you should know, as you are my momma and daddy! *hugs*


Let's see...11-ish days till I'm home!!!

HURRA!!!


All right, have some work to do...

Ciao,

Chelle

No More Lies

Well, Rent was AMAZING to say the least. ;) the guy who played Roger was 4th in "world idol" and had an AMAZING voice...*swoon*...lol

and a guy from "American Idol" played too. pretty cool.

And last night I watched the movie with "Zorro"...mmm...need a new nickname...haha...Squeaky...he'll appreciate that one. ;)

Anyway, love the movie too! So I pretty much have had a million different Rent songs in my head. Not that I mind!!!

But now I want to watch Moulin Rouge...lol. With my Jedi Singer...hehe. Seriously, a guy who can sing, and use the force? Pretty hot if you ask me!!!

Got some random Christmas presents...and considering that I HATE shopping, well, be happy. lol. Or shocked. Whatever. I'm satisfied...though I kind of wish we didn't always have to buy stuff...and that I wouldn't worry, "what are they giving me? if I give them something of "lesser value" i'll feel horrible!" that's like saying, "here, i love you so much, i wasted/spent money on you!" give me a hug and maybe a slice of cheesecake, and i'm set!

speaking of cheesecake, treated myself to some today after my Anth. midterm. which went ok i suppose. some of those questions were so random though...lol. whatever.

Well, the title of this post..."no more lies". I'm sick and tired of lying to/hiding from myself. It hurts more to suppress feelings than to just voice it and get the worst over with.

confused yet? :P well, i'd try to explain, but it never makes sense...and who knows how things will be tomorrow...ugh...it's always changing...lol

one thing I will say...i'll keep fighting this losing battle until i win. Beagle has to listen to me. I can't stand it any more!!! and maybe he thinks i'm giving up...and maybe in a way I am...but I'm really surrendering...to God. i've been going back and forth too long...it's time to cling to Him...

and maybe one day we will be together again, maybe friends...though right now...i'll email him and leave it at that.

so i may not be posting much this weekend because i want to resist the urge to go online because when i do, i'll inevitably check email, etc, and he'll be on and he'll persuade me otherwise, i'll cry, feel like a total...witch with a B...etc. and i don't need that any more.

finally, i'm HAPPY again. like...not hiding anything...genuinely excited...whole again...at peace with myself...happy.

well, hopefully i follow through this time. if i don't...everyone has my permission to smack me on the head with a huge stick...or something to wake me up

I love you all! Everyone back home...14 days!!! YAY!!! Can't wait to see you guys.

Girl's night tonight! Movie? Little Women!!! Man, I KNOW I'll cry...*sigh* But that's ok...it's a happy crying by the end...though I may feel a little...empty...just because I always see myself in Jo...and her cute German professor "boyfriend" always gets to me. LOL

i'm such a loser.

but i love it!!!

Yours, ever in confusion,

Chelle

Like Butter Scraped Over Too Much Bread

"I feel...thin. Sort of stretched, like...butter scraped over too much bread." -Bilbo Baggins

*sigh* That's me. lol. For multiple reasons...

I have to find something to get out of next semester. I volunteer to do too many things. Lol.
If all goes well talking to an advisor tomorrow, I should get away with no classes on Tuesday. Just work, and whatever meetings of whatever things I decide to stay apart of. lol

So, definitely cold here!!! ;)
My face feels frozen after walking around, but, I'm happy. Quite content actually...all bundled up in my layers and stuff. ;)
What I really want to do...is turn the heaters off, light a fire, make some hot cocoa, and cuddle on a couch with someone. lol
Mel, you and Spice get ready for some serious cuddle time when I get home! Sam can join if he promises to refrain from poking while cuddling. LOL

OOOOOH
TEE HEE

I have an item I MUST add to my "wishlist". HEHE. Above all things...lol...*sigh* If you give me this...I will forever feel indebted to you!!!
My future husband...Josh Groban for those of you who were not aware...has a new album out. A Christmas album!!! *swoon* It's titled "Noel" and has some AMAZING songs on it. Of course, he's amazing...so what do you expect? Lol

Just realized I didn't mention that before and thought I'd get it out there.
So, if you love me...hehe...

Well, hall gov starts soon. *yawn* Really hope it goes quick tonight...though it usually DOESN'T. lol

Hopefully I'll have time to write more tomorrow. And hopefully I can post my spring semester schedule!!! Keep your fingers crossed that I can get in to my last 2 classes at the times I want!!! ;)

Liebe, deine kleine, kalte,

Chelle

Winter Wonderland

At last!!! Snow!!! And a bunch of it!!! Came on pretty quickly. This morning I was kind of disappointed, but then, before my bio lab it looked promising!!! lol

By the time lab was done...whoa! lol My face was soooo numb...but the snow is amazing! So beautiful...*sigh*...it'll be hard to leave it to come home to just cold. Not even worth it. lol Kidding. Family is enough for me!!! ;)

Pretty excited about everything. This is winter weather!!! This makes me feel like Christmas is coming!!! YAAAAAAY

lol

*skips through snow*

not really...but i totally would. ;)

my boots were nice and cozy today. and handy when I decided to see how deep the snow was piled in one spot and it went to mid-calf. hehe

so easily amused.

cold weather and less sunshine = sadness

BUT

cold weather and less sunshine + snow = HYPER CHELLE

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

sorry guys. i'm getting excited here.

but if my face falls off, i won't be surprised...lol

i need a nose warmer. my hat works for my ears...but my nose...well a scarf...lol...but still...poor nose...lol

tried to register for classes today. got into 3 of my 5. but my psych classes (developmental and stat) think i haven't met the pre-reqs. *rolls eyes* i have it on my transcript, i'm good to go. so i'm talking to the lady who helped me over the summer on Wednesday, i'm sure she can warp the system...i mean...lol.

kind of sad....i'll have Developmental Psych, Stat, Bio and lab, and College Comp II...no fun classes. ok...i'll have fun in some of those classes...but i mean...nothing...entertaining....like my art class this semester.

OH!!! that's right...for our next and last project we're taking a 2D image and drawing it on our 18x24 paper, and then splitting it into 8 sections and using 8 different mediums that we've used over the semester. i'm thinking of doing some Thomas Kinkade work...that'd be fun. lots of landscape and detail...good for the different things i have to use, charcoal, pastel, ink, etc.

well, going to explore the world of art!!! lol

frozenly yours,

chelle

Flurries and a Wish List

Well, there is enough white stuff sticking to the ground that I think I can say, it's snow. YAY!!!

By home standards, this would be crazy...lol. But, I'm waiting for more. hehe. I'm never satisfied. Until I'm in the middle of a crazy blizzard, about to freeze to death...lol

But really, it's nice out, and little flurries are falling...perfect day after Thanksgiving! :D

Except...life is getting me down. *grumble*

No worries. As Grandma L keeps saying, I'm young. I have time.
I just wish it wasn't so hard! And I wasn't such a people pleaser! Or...that I could be more assertive...lol...
maybe if I didn't care so much...but then I wouldn't be me...

we'll see. i just hope I don't lose a friend. in the end, I probably will lose the boyfriend...but that is yet to be seen...

i just don't want to lose a great friend because my life is so screwed up!

On to more happy things...lol...I had a request from Auntie M, since I wasn't doing the usual Thanksgiving thing, to send out my wish list. Well, I'll put it here first. ;)

By the way, Thanksgiving was fun. Less people than I'm used to, and yet, louder and crazier. lol. Funny the difference one side of the family can make. ;) I love them all though. I had a blast. But I can't wait for Christmas with everyone else!

Now, without further ado...Chelle's Christmas Wish List...*it's hard for me to ask for things...so...be happy i'm doing this...and online for that matter! lol*

• CDs (I love movie soundtracks...including kids movies...Mulan, Pocahontas, Tarzan...and "real" movies...whatever you can think of) (oh...and MercyMe has a new CD, "All That is Within Me", good stuff)
• Books (in general, I like sci-fi, historical fiction, mystery, I ADORE Agatha Christie books and Mary Higgins Clark is good...any book I will read...just please no romances...lol)
• Gift cards (Kohl's, Walmart, Target, STARBUCKS, Michael's (helpful since i'll be doing a lot of art classes)...whatever. I'm a college kid...I'll take what I can get)
• A fish (tank) (i'm lonely in my little dorm room! i want a fishie! actually, I really want a frog, or a turtle...or another hermit crab...but I doubt that's allowed...lol) (i realize that's unrealistic for traveling on a plane with a fish...but...you asked what i wanted! lol)
• Gloves (i have gloves, but...they're a bit stretched out thanks to a certain German Hund...lol. a nice warm pair would be amazing)
• Drawing books (not the kind with blank paper...I have PLENTY of those...i wouldn't mind "how to" books...especially manga drawing books!!! :D)
• Manga (hehe...Mel should have the low down on the series I have and the books I need in those series...)

well...hope that helps! honestly, i'll love anything. ok. take that back. lol. but chances are, if you saw something and thought of me...it'll be perfect! lol

so..hockey game soon! YAY!!! ;)

hope everyone's Thanksgiving went well...have a good weekend...

The Ever Stumbling, Confused,
Chelle

"I want to go back to believing in everything and knowing nothing at all"

"If you look inside a girls heart and see how much she cries, you will find secrets, best friends and lies, but what you'll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothing is right and everything is wrong"

Psalm 86

that old trick of just opening to Psalm never seems to fail. ;)

Psalm 86
A Prayer of David.

1 Bow down Your ear, O LORD, hear me;
For I am poor and needy.
2 Preserve my life, for I am holy;
You are my God;
Save Your servant who trusts in You!
3 Be merciful to me, O Lord,
For I cry to You all day long.
4 Rejoice the soul of Your servant,
For to You, O Lord, I lift up my soul.
5 For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive,
And abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.

6 Give ear, O LORD, to my prayer;
And attend to the voice of my supplications.
7 In the day of my trouble I will call upon You,
For You will answer me.

8 Among the gods there is none like You, O Lord;
Nor are there any works like Your works.
9 All nations whom You have made
Shall come and worship before You, O Lord,
And shall glorify Your name.
10 For You are great, and do wondrous things;
You alone are God.

11 Teach me Your way, O LORD;
I will walk in Your truth;
Unite my heart to fear Your name.
12 I will praise You, O Lord my God, with all my heart,
And I will glorify Your name forevermore.
13 For great is Your mercy toward me,
And You have delivered my soul from the depths of Sheol.

14 O God, the proud have risen against me,
And a mob of violent men have sought my life,
And have not set You before them.
15 But You, O Lord, are a God full of compassion, and gracious,
Longsuffering and abundant in mercy and truth.

16 Oh, turn to me, and have mercy on me!
Give Your strength to Your servant,
And save the son of Your maidservant.
17 Show me a sign for good,
That those who hate me may see it and be ashamed,
Because You, LORD, have helped me and comforted me.

Various Musings of my Heart

well, where shall i begin today...;p

if you noticed, i removed Redemption Installment 6...i really don't like that part...i think it'll just be more simple so i can go into detail in other stuff.
which should be up later...

yeah, i'm a little ticked off with my computer. it won't let me upload video from my digital camera. ;(
and i was going to work on a video for Beagle, and make vids for various family members...*sigh* i'll have a busy time at home. lol

yesterday was amazing, we had our Scandinavian Day. mmmm. lol
Momma and Daddy...watch out...I want to cook when I'm home over my break. :D
it'll be fun.

i guess you could say i'm all right. but then again...how would you define "all right"? there always seems to be something that could be better. something i could improve that would make me happier.
really, i'm content with my life. but somewhere deep down...i'm not...
i've fooled even myself into believing i am ok with everything. so why does it happen that random things pop up that make me question every decision i've made. ok, that's a bit of an over statement.
things have happened lately that make me wonder if i have really made the right decisions.
my life is a big, cruel, irony. at least it has been.

remember when I was struggling with thinking I should break up with Beagle? well, after figuring we'd be fine...I met a guy who I just...clicked with. if that makes sense. and now I'm wondering...what would have happened had i not stayed with Beagle? is this supposed to mean anything? is God banging me over the head with a stick again? lol

He did that for a while with my Africa thing...kind of funny really. every Sunday, or every time I went to listen to someone speak...I felt that tug on my heart again...i think now if i do graduate in 2010, after graduation would be a perfect time to do what i've been needing to. and maybe a few summers before that too...hmmm...it'll be a lot of money though. lol
but God will lead me there...

just like He'll lead me through my current struggle.

the hardest thing about all of this...is not being able to see Beagle face-to-face...even by web cam.
i get so busy...we hardly have time to talk. but when we do, I know I'm doing the right thing. at least for now.
there's no way we met by chance. no way that there isn't a bigger reason for us to have met and been together. these things don't happen by mistake.
so why must i suffer on my own? he suffers too...but...how do i know? once a week POSSIBLY getting to talk to him...doesn't cut it. i'm always questioning, struggling...
it's like there will never be an end to it.

there's no easy way out. maybe the most i can do right now is wait out the next five months...and see what happens this summer. i know that when he comes in April or May, for a long time, the longest we'll have been literally/physically together...that will be the deciding factor. will we be able to stand one another for that long? will i be able to wait for another five years with various intervals of seeing one another?

i never expected this to be easy.

*sigh* i love it here, but i'm longing for the comforts of home. things were easier then. somehow. i didn't really struggle this much...i can't figure out why. maybe i need my family and friends more than i thought. ;)

i love you guys so much. i'm happy here...but...there's a love and comfort i feel around you nothing can replace.
maybe that was what kept me going without Beagle all those days, months...those 2 long years.

well...whatever. lol.
i'm young. i have time. i just hope i'm not giving up/wasting my youth...lol

yours, with a shattered, broken heart,

Chelle

Vampiress

pics i "lost"

my vamp pics from halloween

hehehehe

painted my nails black with red, "blood stains"...heh heh

borrowed the cape *and makeup* from a friend

fuzzy, but i like this pic. looks almost like i'm licking myself. lol

Soon

well, i'm trying to write more of Redemption. it's kind of slow coming right now. but tomorrow i should have a little to update everyone with.

mmm...pretty lazy weekend. watched some movies with the RA and ARHD. was fun. we had pizza and ice cream too.
yesterday hung out with Jen and the guys at one of their apartments. we played some games, planned on being home earlier since we weren't watching a movie...yeah right. still got back at 2am. lol but still fun.

and today...mostly nothing. that's not to say this weekend was totally useless! got some homework done, a little reading...relaxing. ;)

the following are pics of me and mel. she dressed as me for halloween and i thought it was pretty funny. guess who's who?

she's on the left in both, i'm on the right. too cute, right?

well, think i'll read some and then get to sleeping. it's amazing how much i can just sleep. ;)

Chelle

Master of Disguise

trying stuff on at Dallas'...haha...i look...interesting...




Ninja turtle!!! *teehee* So, the belt on the front of the shell said R, and the stuff with it was purple...soooo...I was Rachel, they're little known sister...lol

hmmm...i just upload my vamp pics to the comp...can't seem to place them...*rolls eyes* figures. well, if i find them, i'll show you. i had some good ones. ;)

Let it...snow?

It's been getting colder, and some would tell you that it was snowing Monday and Tuesday. I however will not deceive you. There were small white specks, but it was by all means NOT snow. Merely solidified rain trying to be snow. Snow should stick to the ground and stay. It's not quite there yet. But *crosses fingers* it's getting there. ;)

Things have definitely been interesting around here. First, Zorro *guy I met at the halloween dance* and I have totally hit it off! We have way too much in common for two random people who just met. lol
Honestly, I feel like I've known him forever! He even asked if we were twins seperated at birth...and then we were like...no...not possible...cuz he's almost 2 years older than me! lol
But it's cool meeting someone with similar interests, especially tastes in music! I mean, the Carpenter's? Come on, it's rare to find someone my age who appreciates them! lol
Anyway, we ended up hanging out for like 6 hours Sunday night. So random, but fun.

Moonlight breakfast is tomorrow. I only have to work it for 30 min thank goodness! Maybe I'll win something *hopeful gleam* ;)

In art today we had a critique, and everyone really liked my collage! YAY
I'll post a pic next week sometime when i get my portfolio back. hmmm...that won't be till Wednesday! We won't have class Friday since people will be leaving for the three day weekend, and Monday is off...wow...lol.

speaking of pics, i have various halloween pics to share.
i'll post em seperate, adding pics messes up my spacing...lol

i'm talking to a psych advisor today about classes. that is, if there's not a whole bunch of people there to talk to them.
i'm seriously looking into art therapy...so...;)...we'll see what tips they can give me.
especially about research. i want to get involved with spring research, but there are 3 professors i'm debating between...one has rats and mice and looks at procratination and how one species of mice suffers from dwarfism but lives longer, better lives; another looks at test development and basically how to better evaluate people effectively and how video games can affect or reflect personality (i especially like that since i love online games and he mentioned those ;)); and then there's a professor i originally thought of who works with kids, but mainly in the legal sense, and that really doesn't interest me...
so...we shall see!!!

*hugs*

Love, Chelle

Redemption Installment 5

*continuing from Joanne and the "dark lady's" convo..*

“What? You took us so you could keep studying us after our homes were destroyed?” Joanne’s face was flushing with anger. “That makes no sense. Are you going to lock us in little cages and test our blood and DNA or something? And what’s the purpose of destroying Earth when you’re so keen to study us?”
“Please calm yourself, Miss Mitchell. We want you to understand what is going on here, though it may be hard at first. We are destroying your world before you destroy each other. You and your comrades are here to start a new Earth.”

In the awkward silence that followed the dark woman’s words, Joanne had no thoughts. Her mind was literally empty as she stared dumbstruck into the calm collected face of this alien. Slowly, her mind tried to process all this new information. A new Earth, a culture that revered women and worshipped blacks, the destruction of Earth; slowly, tears made their way down her cheeks. “But, why?” She whispered almost to herself. “Why do you have to destroy us?”
“As I said,” the calm alien woman before her spoke. “We are concerned that your people are destroying each other, and if we do not intervene, then all that is what you call Earth and humankind, will be gone.”
“But you’re destroying it anyway! What difference does it make? Either way we lose!”
The dark woman shook her head. “No, this way, you may continue your culture, and we may continue to study it. Most of our top scientists are in full support of this because it gives us a chance to watch how your culture evolves from nothing. Can you understand this?”
Joanne was furious. A million different things ran through her mind, many of them unutterable things she longed to yell at this woman before her. “I’m afraid I can’t understand at all,” she spoke slowly, trying to keep her temper in check. “Isn’t there a way you will change your mind?”
The woman smiled faintly. “It is not up to me what happens to your world. I merely speak and act upon the will of my people. The council makes the decisions and unless you believe you can change their minds-”
“Yes!” Joanne suddenly felt hopeful. “Let me speak to this council, give me a chance, I know I can make them change their minds.” I have to, she thought to herself.
“Very well Miss Mitchell,” the woman inclined her head politely. “Tomorrow you will accompany me to a meeting of the council,” she walked over to the end of the table and pressed a button. “For now, you will remain her with your comrades. I will return in a few short hours after you have rested.” The door opened and the light blue man who had accompanied Joanne everywhere thus far entered the room, sweeping a deep bow to both the women. “Teka will be your attendant for as long as you stay with us, he is skilled in many Earth tongues.” She turned to him and clicked and whistled rapidly, in response he bowed again and as the dark woman swept one last curtsey to Joanne and glided out of the room, Teka approached Joanne, motioning with his hands.
“Come, Miss Mitchell, it is time you rested, your comrades will have finished their meal now, but I will be sure something is brought to you.”

Minutes later, Joanne had polished off a pretty decent meal of chicken with rice and beans. As a green skinned Myantide exited with her empty plates, she thought to herself that that had to have been the best in flight meal she had had in a long time. Teka stood awkwardly in a corner of the room, watching Joanne meticulously. A bit uncomfortable, she twisted around to see what her “comrades” were doing. Chinue, the thin black girl, was still huddled underneath her blanket, and when Joanne’s eyes met hers, Chinue’s glance fell quickly to the ground. Much to her dismay, the red headed woman, Rosemary, came and sat beside her.
“So,” she whispered, leaning in close to Joanne’s ear as she peered suspiciously at Teka. “What happened? Did you speak to any of them?” Rosemary’s eyes shone bright with a hunger for information. Joanne now understood why the Myantides had never spoken to her or the other lighter skinned people. Though, even if Rosemary had been black, Joanne felt no one would confide much information in her.
She shrugged, making herself seem indifferent to the whole situation. “I talked to someone. She’s taking me to some council meeting tomorrow.” Suddenly two other figures appeared beside Rosemary. Tene and Jabari leaned in eagerly.
“What sort of meeting is this?” Jabari warbled. “Are they really destroying Earth?” Rosemary’s eyebrows shot up at the new information and she suddenly looked frightened.
Joanne cleared her throat awkwardly. She hadn’t really wanted to tell the others about this. She had hoped to go before this council, explain to them that they just couldn’t destroy Earth, and then go home. It didn’t much matter to her that the others were involved. “Well, I’m going in front of a council to convince them not to destroy Earth.” Jabari and Tene sat back, their faces a bit more subdued.
Tene shook his head. “They will not listen. We have tried to reason with them before, but reason is something completely different to them.”
“Maybe they’ll listen to me,” Joanne felt a bit insulted that the men didn’t trust her. “The woman I spoke to said they respect women more than men, I’m sure they’ll listen to me.”
“Oh, they’ll listen, no doubt,” now Keiji knelt beside the group. “But they will not understand. They are a different people from us, there is much we could never convey to their hearts, try as we might to explain it to their heads.”
Joanne was confused. Her brain felt like it was twisted into a billion tight knots closing around her head. Why shouldn’t these people listen to and understand her? It wasn’t that hard to understand, was it?

The next day, Joanne lost what she had been so sure of. She seated herself between Teka and the dark woman whom she had been told to call “Giaga”, which Joanne assumed to be the equivalent to “queen” or “empress”, or something very high status. The council meeting was taking place in a private ship quite similar to the one she had seen Giaga exit from the day before. The entrance to the ship was the entrance to the meeting room, which was the ship. Plush seats lined the curved walls and all ready a couple hundred people of various blue colors were seated. A floating council, Joanne thought as more people entered and took their places. She wondered if they would actually be flying during the meeting.
But as the meeting began, Joanne lost all confidence in herself and began to shake in her seat. She hadn’t felt this way since high school speech class. The immense size of the room and the huge number of people, Myantides, occupying it frightened her in a way she couldn’t explain. She soothed herself with thoughts of her friends and family, and all that she knew that was good in her life. Maybe it wasn’t spectacular, but it was something worth fighting for. Or so she thought at the time.
Giaga rose regally after a pale blue man had led the group in a series of clicks she assumed was the standard beginning to every meeting. Giaga’s voice filled the room with ease. Joanne sat amazed at the power this woman had over her audience. Every eye in the room was focused on her, and though she couldn’t understand anything that was being said, Joanne too found herself mesmerized. After a few urgent clicks from Giaga, Joanne found herself caught up in a great silence. Slowly it dawned on her, Giaga was done speaking. And every eye was now on her. Joanne blushed profusely, looking from Giaga to Teka for an explanation.
“You are expected to speak now,” Teka said flatly as if this should have been completely obvious to her. Dazed, she rose from her seat and made the mistake of looking into a million pairs of eyes. Heart racing, her palms filling with sweat, Joanne turned wide eyed to Giaga. The woman gazed back with placid eyes and took her seat, pushing something on the sideof Joanne’s armrest as she did. Almost simultaneously, an invisible force field seemed to take hole of her. At first it was if her lungs were being squished underneath a steam roller, but gradually the pressure lifted, though Joanne could still feel some eerie presence about her.

Halloween...thank GOD it's over

Wow, this week has been...nonstop! ;)
First I had to stuff cups with candy for two hours. Then I passed those out for an hour tuesday. And yesterday was the halloween dance...
tomorrow is another dance, but i don't have to do anything but show up to that one.

i was definitely a vampiress at the AIM Exorcist movie showing last Friday. funny thing about that...i put white makeup all over my face, right? to be pale...ya know. anyway, two oriental guys, not trying to be racist, it's just pertinent that they're asian, they come in and I explain what's going on kind of, and they look at me and ask "Why is your face all decorated?" and I tell them, "Well, it's Halloween, or almost, and we're supposed to be having a costume contest." (one other girl dressed up, and we are both on the committee...*shakes head*) so then I get up to show them where the movie is being shown and as I walk past them one says, "Very beautiful." ok, let's get this straight. my face is WHITE, i have DARK eyeshadow, and "blood" dripping from the corners of my red lips. i felt freaky, and most people were freaked out...beautiful came out of nowhere!
i come back to our AIM group looking a bit stunned and I sit down and say, "That was awkward...they said I was "very beautiful"." Another guy on the committee says, "Well, they are used to their women that way." and all of a sudden, i have a revelation!!! GEISHA!!!
i originally wanted to be a geisha for halloween, but i didn't have a kimono...;(...and i LOVE Memoirs of a Geisha *reading the book now*, so I couldn't believe i didn't think of that!!!
so, two oriental guys thought my vamp makeup was "very beautiful" because it was "geisha-like"
*grins*

mmm...now let's see...my left arm still hurts from stuffing airheads, laffy taffy, and starburst into dine of the dead cups on Monday...over 2000 man...that's a heck of a lot of cups!!! and candy...

yesterday's dance was fun. Native was wacko in his fireman uniform. *rolls eyes but laughs* he came by CC since I'm just across the street from the Union and our ARHD and RA freaked out!!! in a good way...and they made him go to some rooms and knock on doors asking "where's the fire?" which is funny since we have had the fire alarm go off multiple times here.
he was pretty, flirtatious...at the dance. he cracks me up. definitely NOT afraid of what others think. i on the other hand felt very silly in a borrowed ninja turtle costume. i think it was cute and original though. ;) unlike the majority of the females there, i was not bearing every inch of skin possible...in fact, quite the opposite. i had pants on, a green turtle neck under my shell, and the shell was not suggestive of anything, so i was quite the modest halloween goer. lol.

twas fun. though i hated having to come back and study. ;( luckily, i made a perfect score on my bio quiz today. ;)

tomorrow, another vamp night. but no white makeup this time. if i do, it'll be a lot less, but i think not. we shall see.

*yawn* well, i want to work on some art stuff. i'll take pics of my favorite pieces to show you guys, i'm quite proud of some of my work. ;) and as soon as i can get pics of my various costumes, i'll post them here too.

*hugs*

Sleepily yours,

Chelle

PS you know what's hard? having someone, but not having them. if you catch my drift. i felt kind of...strange...at the dance. sort of, awkward, watching couples. it was funny when a guy i met there thought Native was "my man"...haha...but i did wish i had someone to stand and talk with all night...to "claim"...as weird as that sounds. i did talk with some people most of the night, including said guy above, who was in an amazing Zorro costume. Zorro and Jen convinced me to go to the ballroom dance tomorrow...i'll probably dance there...real dancing, not bumping and grinding...HAHA...

yeah...so...i get down on myself a lot...it's hard not hearing from Beagle every day like i used to...can't wait to talk to him tomorrow. *sigh* can't wait till April when I can FINALLY hold him again...

man, there's a lot more i want to talk about...maybe tomorrow...this post has been plenty long enough.

OH!!! redemption will be updated, i promise! just been busy lately!!! ;)

*and don't get your hopes up, it won't be that great of a story...lol*

Don't Judge Me...

"Be yourself, because the people who mind don't matter and the people who matter don't mind." -Dr. Suess

Mmmm...sooooo...lemme just say this...I am a learning, growing, changing human being. Aren't we all? So, sometimes I do things that make no sense...trust me...i make no sense to myself.

Except, I do. And I think as long as I understand myself, it's ok. It'll help me in the future.

So, I had talked to Jen...Sunday...about boys, relationships...and she mentioned that maybe I should think about breaking up with Beagle. I had been feeling for a while that our relationship was not what it should be...or at least there were things we needed to work out...and I took this to be God telling me to move on.
Thing is...whenever I tried to fix the things I knew needed fixing, I freaked out and ignored it...so it bothered me to the point where I thought breaking up was the only way to fix it! Silly me thought Beagle would automatically shoot me down for my feelings, etc. He does do that at times...*grumble* But not on purpose, and not for the things that really matter.
Today, we resolved a few things. He made me feel a bit better by presenting a "plan" for the next few years. Just roughly how long until we can really be together finally...lol.
Anyway...I finally came out and said what I was feeling, and he said, ok, i love you anyway...and though he doesn't understand, he won't force me to change my mind. he'll just wait for me to do the things i have to do...

anyway...what i mean is...we are at least staying together until we can talk this over together, face-to-face. ;)
this just goes with my lovely theory, any relationship can work as long as the people involved WANT it to and are willing to make it work. as in, you give a little, i give a little, we pull together

beagle talked to his best friend's girlfriend about what i had said (before we had a chance to talk today) and she told him to tell me, "das sie das bestimmt selbst nicht will" "she doesn't really want to do this to herself"
tis true.

but you know what...i'm glad i did freak out and think i was going to leave Beagle. why you ask? because it forced me to place myself back in God's hands. I'm suddenly becoming more comfortable resting in the fact that things won't always go my way, but He is there to hold me and He knows what is in store for me and will lead me through it.
which is what i needed anyway! i don't need to fix my relationship with Beagle, or the way I look at myself...I needed to come back to God. I needed to remember what it is to trust Him and from there work everything else out.

because the minute I trust Him, I do things I don't normally do, like tell Beagle what i'm REALLY thinking...and it works out ok!!!

i know some of you readers will be like...ok Chelle...that was ridiculous. are you just starving for attention?
yes, it was silly. but as i said at the beginning, we all struggle and are growing. but you know what, it took this to show myself that I can give up the love of my life to follow God. I still will. But he's ok with me going to Africa. not for 5 years...lol...but he said i have to do what i have to do, and he'll wait for me.

and now i see, nothing is perfect, it takes a lot of work, and i HAVE to be honest with him and myself. i can't say, yeah, whatever, i'll get over this feeling. no, if he can't respect my thoughts and feelings, bye-bye...but he DOES respect them...and he forgives me when i do dumb things like say we should break up.

so, i made some strange choices...but in the end...i'm better for it.
i'm stronger, more confident that things will work for good whatever happens...

and hoping that people don't think i'm some immature child. because you want to know the truth? a long term, long distance relationship is ONE of the hardest things. especially right now. and i am pretty proud of Beagle and myself for making it through all the crap we do and I don't know many other people who could do it. i barely can...obviously, but he's great about helping me.

all right, enough with the self defense. lol.
just know that i wasn't begging for attention. i was honestly struggling, but i'm ok now. and i learned an important lesson, be honest...and talk things over before making huge decisions.

and trust that things will always work for the best.

<----(this is me)

Chelle

*groan*

So, can't post too much. Got to study. ;(
Man, who would know that Halloween is such a busy time of year!!!
Not only do I have a West Civ exam tomorrow (ugh!!!), i have a bio quiz...and work. Then I'm going to a MercyMe concert!!! That'll be my rejuvinating moment...
Friday is the big screen movie the AIM reps are putting on, so I have to be there...ugh. 9-1...i don't have to stay all night...THANK GOD!!! Hopefully my ARHD can pick me up whenever I get tired of being there...because I am NOT walking back...*shudder*
Then...this weekend I'm going to Karlstad with Jen and her bf. I really don't want to be alone this weekend...that's why. ;)
And Sunday is trick-or-treating with kids. They're coming by our dorms, I volunteered to put up arrows to show them around and to escort them.
And of course next week, Dine of the Dead Tuesday...and I'm program rep too so I have to do that...and Wednesday is the Halloween dance...gotta be there...*whew* lol
Good thing about all that is, no time to sit down and feel sorry for myself!!!

Mmmk...my bio study buddy should call soon...then i need to look over West Civ...*groan*...wish me luck on that...I don't even know what to study this time...GRRR...lol

Emotionally and physically drained,

Chelle

To My Sister

I wrote the following weeks ago...and I feel better about it now. Why? Well, let me catch you up since I haven't posted in a while.

I'm breaking up with my boyfriend. It's messy, it's painful, but I know it's right. Why? Well, every time I try to spend time with God, I get this peaceful feeling nudging me and saying, "Hey, this relationship, it's not good for you. You think it is, but there's better." Which is hard for me to believe. I mean, I still love this guy! But I think about it seriously, and I see that following God's will for my life and being with Beagle, at least now, totally contradict each other! That, and I'm letting myself down. Everyday I don't know who I am because of some mistakes I made...that I thought I'd just forget about and "fix" in the future.

In short, I'm leaving a relationship that looks wonderful, felt wonderful, but in the long run was probably not a good thing...;(

And I talked to my big sis, KK *old nickname for her ;)* about it, and about a lot of deep, dark, personal secrets, ok like one...lol...but anyway...turns out, we have had VERY similar experiences...and I am just so amazed at God. Because, come on, who else can take a bad, painful situation, make that two painful situations...and use them for good!!!

Basically, I have felt for years that my big sis wasn't my big sis, was someone I didn't know...but now, I'm healing from that, as I heal from my relationship with Beagle etc. I'm so thankful for everything...like in my song/poem from fall retreat "i am in awe, of all that You have done, of all that You are doing"

anyway, the poems i wrote a while back were in response to my sis's situation and me wanting to be apart of her life but feeling i wasn't...yeah...but i am ok!!! lol. this is just how i did feel...there's two....one with pics. ;)

and...if it sounds angry...that's because i was so disconnected from all that was happening, so confused...now though, i'm glad to be close to my family again. ;)

What happened to those days,

Innocence came so easily,

Love was natural,

And we never questioned each other.

Now I look at you,

And who do I see?

Not someone I know,

Not the one I looked up to.

Why must we grow up?

Why must we separate,

Our lives are two different things,

And I wish somehow they were still connected.

I used to wear your clothes,

Pretend and wish

With all my heart,

That I was just like you.

Your independence and grace

Inspired me.

When did you become

Someone I couldn't follow?

Do you know how much I’ve needed you?

How now,I don’t understand

So many things

And as I watch you fall

I can only see myself

Doing the same.

If all else fails,

Come back to me.

Remind me why I called you sister,

Why I proudly held your hand.

Give me back my big sister,

Give me back my best friend.

Take a trip with me

Not too far back,

Just close your eyes,

I can almost see us there,

Lying in bed at night,

Whispering like little girls do.

You always told me of foreign lands

Lands I could travel to

Only in my dreams.

You filled my head with stories

About fairies

And lands where magic was abundant.

I still remember

Listening in rapture

To your voice in the dark,

Telling me of friends you made

On these voyages in the night,

And I too would close my eyes,

And drift off to a land all my own.

A little further in time

Still a while back,

But close enough I can still taste it,

We made mud pies

And played by the tree

Outside our father’s house.

You told me the moss

Was Mother Nature

And we spoke to her

Like she was real.

When we were bored

You made up stories

And we played queen and servant.

You let me be queen,

But I always thought you were the best.

And I still remember,

Crouching on the stairs

As we played a make-believe game,

A friend was there, and she whispered to me,

“You’re big sister is the coolest!”

And I proudly beamed and said,“I know.”

I never looked at you the same again.

You were my idol.

I wanted to be just like you.

I hated not seeing you dance

I hated when you didn’t come on the weekends.

Most of all, I hated it

When you got a serious boyfriend.

I know now,

It wasn’t him.

You were older,

I was still too young,

And you were exploring life,

You didn’t need me any longer.

But I blamed him with all my heart,

And when I lost my big sister

And forgot what it was to have a sister and friend

All rolled into one,

I said he had stolen you from me.

And then, not long ago at all,

You got married.

I was in the wedding,

But I was at the end,

Behind the girl you also called

“Sister”,

But she was only related by marriage,

We had a blood bond,

And I used to think it meant something.

I didn’t see you kiss the groom,

I barely even saw your shoes,

Still, I was so happy to be there,

Even if he was taking you away from me more.

And somehow, things got better.

And we were a family.

You and “the Jeans”,

I still didn’t like him,

Or so I said,

You would come to dinner,

And we would talk,

Laugh,

Play games and be

A family.

So now what happened?

As if I wasn’t far enough away

Another break has occurred

And I am too confused to understand.

I’ll never understand

Why you did what you did,

This girl I looked up to,

Who I thought was

MY SISTER,

Again,

Is gone.

But I still love you.

Blood is stronger than anything,

Except for our memories,

And those are what keep me going

In hopes that someday

We will come together,

Broken as we are,

And be a family again.

Flip or Flop?

Just got done with a LOVELY bio lab exam...
it could go either way...i totally thought i bombed it...but i looked over some stuff, turns out I was right!!! YAY!!! and then...on things i thought were right...i was wrong...;(
hopefully the right outweighs the wrong...lol
i even left a note for the TA...

"sorry I suck at this...this is really embarrassing...I swear I have an A in the class!"

lol.
it didn't help not knowing what to study. i studied stuff i didn't need...lol. but i think i should at least not fail miserably.

ah, and in art, started with oil pastels today...*groan* my color wheel looks like a kindergartener did it. good thing I was pretty good at art for a kindergartener when i was one...lol
it wasn't supposed to look like a work of art or paint...oil pastels are sketchy lookin', but the girls to my right were using their fingers to smear their colors nicely...so i felt silly with my lovely color combos...lol

Beagle has off this week *gleam* so we talked between my art and other classes, lol. It was...special...
he's 20 yrs old, in the military...and he was having a fit over his new cell phone because he couldn't get it to take a pic of me. it was hilarious!!! I couldn't help laughing. And then he was upset we didn't "talk"...well duh...he was obsessed with his phone not working properly the whole time!!! lol
Luckily we have all week. That's a luxury I am not taking forgranted.
For the first time, I walked to class grinning, because my puppy had made me laugh. *shakes head* How could I let him go?

I will always struggle, that's a given...but he will always make it worth the while. *hopefully...lol*

Mmmk...no one has knocked on my door for dinner yet...I guess I'll go see if the gang is out there.

Cross your fingers and knock on wood that my bio lab exam went ok!!!
I had just been comtemplating taking bio 151 next semester too...now i may have to, or take another science, if i fail the lab portion!!! HAHA...just kidding. I don't think I failed. I just know I didn't pass with flying colors. More like, scrapped by with dusty charcoal...;)

Von UND,

Chelle

Before I Sleep

made this...just because. lol

the German quote is from a song i am absolutely in love with. one of many actually. ;) by the band Söhne Mannheims. and Xavier Naidoo is amazing too...;)

all right, tomorrow's monday...long day ahead of me...later gators!!!

OH!!! and happy birthday to all the party people I missed out on celebrating today! it was great talking to you all on the phone though. ;)

Dreamily yours,

Chelle

Simple Things

mmmm...it's the little things that bring great pleasure to life...
like warm clothing after it has been through the dryer...mmmm

lol

i want to cuddly up with my warm clothes all in a pile, lol. except for the pants that burned me...lol. the zipper was a bit firey. haha. not really, but it was HOT. ;)

so, this weekend is definitely a weekend of relaxation and homework. Next weekend is the Northern Lights Psychology Conference, and i have to go to that and do some sort of report thingy i think. i'll find out Monday the exact details. ;)
i think i'll go to that early *haha, who am i kidding?* and then catch the series of buses that will take me to Target so I can get some essentials. i'm thinking of buying a few healthy snacks for my room, i need a few new jeans *i tore a hole in one pair...teehee...*, boots, warm underthings, a belt...nothing fancy. but this southern gal needs to be ready for the cold. ;)

sad thing is, i handle the cold better than the natives here! Including Native himself. HAHA. It's cold, but I don't complain...in fact...I complain when I get inside and have to remove all my layers because it's so hot!!! lol

anyway, got some art stuff to work on. i don't think i'm doing very well with it, but it looks all right i suppose.

OH!!! almost forgot. i was working on bio while my laundry was going, *still have to finish...*, and i was like, ok, cell to cell interaction, done, oooh, early development...i am actually reading the whole chapter. haha. usually that's unnecessary, i just go through the learning assignment, find what i need to answer the questions, take notes in class, and i'm good. but i HAD to read this. lol. i secretly love biology. no, not secretly. lol. it's just so cool!!! i mean, think about it. we start out as one cell, and become this walking, talking, thinking, multicellular organism! how weird is that?
i don't know how you can't believe in a supreme being after science courses. how did the world come to be? oh, some particles exploded and formed a big mass of junk that formed other stuff, etc etc. but where did those first particles come from? i mean, how can a whole universe be shaped out of random particles that just HAPPENED to come together and form some big explosion thingy? they had to come from somewhere before that, and there had to be a reason behind it! *sigh* it's amazing. i believe in big bang, and evolution, and God. i think God is amazing like that and had all sorts of ways to develop life and stuff. i mean, 7 days to Him is not 7 days to us!!! lol.

ok, now that i'm thinking of creation and biology and how amazing the world is...lol...wow...i'm special...

speaking of bio...have an A in the class, got an A on the last exam...so no worries. ;)
pretty simple stuff. well, not simple, but i get it. lol

girl's night last night was fun. i got really into the movie. haha..."No! Forget coma guy!" and i would freak out at random points...haha. it was a good movie. cheesy ending line...but really funny and cute. (it was While You Were Sleeping by the way)
then I watched Bridget Jones Edge of Reason with another girl. that was funny too. i remember reading the first book in that series...but i don't remember anything except it was funny...lol
good times, good times. ;)

and now, enough procrastinating, it's off to work I go!!! (hehe...dwarves...hehe)

LATER!!!

Crazily yours,

Chelle