Thursday, September 27, 2007

Right Where I Belong

Just had to share some wonderful things I ran into today...

Kathryn Larson
Kristine Larson
Mueller

You know you're where you belong when you run into names eeriely close to yours or someone close to you. ;)
When I saw the first one, I thought, did they mess up my name that badly? lol
And I was excited when the last name Mueller popped up somewhere. ;)

Mmm...no posts until Monday, I don't think...maybe late Sunday...leave for the fall retreat after class tomorrow. YAY

And it's lovely and cold at night now...so...camping in the cold! WOOHOO!!! lol

Bundled up, but comfy,
Chellechen

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Redemption Installment 3

DISCLAIMER: this will seem "political" at one point, possibly, but it's NOT. the meaning will be seen at the end, do not assume I am bashing people or cultures, I am simply writing a story. the end will show you what i mean by the whole.
Also, grammar will not be perfect. this is all a first draft. who knows how I may change things in the end. you are blessed to see my messy beginning. ;)


*See my posts Redemption Installment 1 and 2 for the beginning of the story.




The man held up a hand to silence her. “We have obviously upset you,” he said in that grainy, mechanical voice. Joanne shivered. “We must beg your forgiveness and ask you how we can help you.”
Joanne stared at the man in complete and utter awe.
“Forgiveness? What can you do for me?” She shook her head. “I don’t get it. I almost killed your leader, and you’re asking ME for forgiveness?”
The light blue man blinked once, seemingly unfazed by her bewildered questions. “What exactly upset you? We must know that before we can do anything to help you.”
Joanne’s eyes filled with tired tears as she wished for some end to this nonsense. “Those two men, they said you were going to destroy Earth,” the light blue man actually reacted to this. His eyes enlarged, and he stiffened even more.
“This bothers you?” There was a hint of hesitation in his voice.
Joanne nodded feebly. “Of course it does, though I’m not sure I believe it. I mean, this whole thing is bizarre,” she tried to laugh but had to suck in a deep breath to prevent more tears from falling. “Can I just go home now, this is too much for me,” she pleaded with the blue man.
He made no reply, instead he hit a button on the table in the room they had entered and clicked into the air. He paused and watched Joanne closely. “There will be someone here shortly to speak with you. For now, the mission has been cancelled.”
Though Joanne had no idea what he was talking about, his sudden change in mannerism was comforting. His mechanical voice seemed softer somehow, and she saw actual concern in his eyes. Perhaps it wasn’t for her, but it was good to know she wasn’t surrounded by a bunch of highly technologically developed but insensitive creatures.
A sudden jolt shook the room. Joanne screamed, her body hitting the long table in front of her hard. The blue man kept his balance and rushed to her side, lifting her gently and awkwardly. He let go of her quickly, his eyes probing into hers. “Are you good?” Joanne nodded, ignoring his bad grammar. “Then come,” he held open the door for her. “They are here.”
Joanne followed him to a room near the one she had first come from. A bit bewildered, she stood before a large steel door, imprinted with random symbols and what looked like numbers flashing by on a thin screen at eye level. Her escort pressed a button on the wall and clicked rapidly. The door shook and opened, revealing a huge gymnasium-like arena. As they walked inside, Joanne made the assumption that this was some sort of hangar; various small aircraft, or what she assumed to be aircraft, lined the walls which had huge doorways, some opened, some closed.
Feeling a bit like she was in a Star Wars episode, Joanne wandered down to the end of the hangar with the blue man. Not paying attention to where she was going, she bumped right into him and fell silently to the ground. Looking up, she gasped, as before her a ramp was lowered from an enormous spherical shaped, thing. There was no name for it but UFO. It was sleek and black, rounded like a ball, but much bigger than anything used for transport on Earth. Still on the ground, Joanne watched as these strangely colored people exited the orb in strict rows, two by two, as if exiting the ark. The first people to exit were a light red color, almost pink, and as more came the shades of red became darker, like a box of crayons with varying hues. After red came blue, and soon the blues appeared almost black from afar. Then, there was a lull in the movement, and everyone grew still, eyes focused on the empty ramp.
All that was missing from the moment was dramatic music. A woman, dressed in black robes, with skin the deepest, shining blue imaginable, walked elegantly down the ramp, her head held high, her eyes focused straight ahead. Every knee hit the floor as she walked past, every head was bowed, and the very air held still as she walked past. Joanne looked up awkwardly from her position on the ground as the woman approached her. When her feet were inches from Joanne’s face, the woman stopped and gazed down at her with powerful gray eyes. Joanne swallowed hard, scrambling to get up into the standard kneeling position she guessed was necessary to take in this woman’s presence. But before she could complete the maneuver, the woman before her had whisked gracefully into the very position Joanne had been attempting to make. Startled, Joanne glanced around her as a rustle of bodies moved to mimic the woman’s. Joanne crouched awkwardly, gawking at all the people bowing to her. If she hadn’t been so confused and upset about everything going on, it would have been almost comical.
Random, urgent clicking awoke her from her reverie. The dark woman had begun murmuring unintelligible things at her. Joanne shook her head, trying to let her know that she didn’t understand a word, or click, she was saying. Confused, the woman looked to the blue man who had led Joanne here, who clicked rapidly to her. Nodding, the woman rose and offered Joanne her hand. The woman’s grip was strong and firm, but her hands were small and smooth, Joanne wondered what sort of position she held for these people.
In a commanding, but smooth voice the woman said, “Come, we have much to discuss.”

Just Another Wednesday

Just thought i'd drop by and say hello!
lol

Not much to mention, again. I was trying to suffer through West Civ reading...ugh...i'll go back and do more soon. It's just sooooooo hard to read. I mean, it's boring. And history is exciting, or at least remotely interesting! Couldn't the people who write the books make it more that way? Occasionally they mention something, and I'm like, whoa, cool, and then I'm back to "so and so did such and such and he was great." yay...lol

It's all good though. The biography we're reading on Napoleon for the next exam is interesting. And I think I have a good essay format in mind. ;)

soooo...other than that..we adopted a lot today. cleaned up the parking lot behind our hall. woohoo. apparently bushes are a good place to store used beer cans. *shrugs*

speaking of cans...we're collecting tabs. soup tabs, pop tabs *eek, i said pop!*, beer tabs....tabs...so...if you love me, i mean...love UND, and Ronald McDonald house, send me some! lol ;)

Back to the books...
Chelle

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Cold Tuesday

at last, cold. lol
it's been cold, but yesterday was a disappointment, so today made up for that.

um...hmmm...
well, i could be truthful and say i didn't do well on my Western Civ exam last week. guess it's too late to say otherwise now. lol
i'm going to do TONS better on the one coming up in about a month...lol. i'm going to whip out my mad AP English skills. I wasn't too sure about how he wanted these essays...and that day was not my day either...i was quite tired...lol. so...next time should be better. ;)
though i will say this, getting an A in that class will be a challenge. he has given one A in...who knows how long! lol

mmm...i finished my bio studying...just have west. civ left...*sigh*...but it's evening...time to write! lol
right before my hall gov meeting that is.

laters!!!

Dein,
Chellechen

Monday, September 24, 2007

Dreary Monday

boo
as if Monday wasn't bad enough by itself, let's make it icky, warm, cloudy, and drizzily.
i would be ok if it would just RAIN. come on sky, BE A MAN!!! lol
rain is great. it depresses me though when it's wimpy rain that isn't even rain. like clouds just spitting on you.
and today was too warm. i hate warm and wet. i know it sucks to be cold and wet, but then you can cuddle up somewhere and feel better. i have to come to my room, put on shorts and a tank, and keep the fans on
yuck
lol
mmm...just another day really. a lady came by and talked about co-op in our psych class. i should look into that. could be fun.
other than that...not much going on. though i do feel hug deprived. i once heard you should get 15 hugs a day to be really healthy. yeah...i've gotten...oh...at most 10 hugs in the month I've been here.
WHOA...a month. over a month. wow. hard to believe how fast things start going. mmm
went to Grandma's over the weekend. she liked my value drawing of one of her thimbles that i did for art class. ;) i don't like it so much, but whatever. lol
in art today we had to bring our own subjects, well, not HAD to, but it was encouraged. so i just used my cell phone. lol. at least that goes kind of fast. we have to draw it 5 times. i'm on my third one.
so, nothing left to report really. fall retreat this weekend!!! i'm excited for that.
and i downloaded 50 songs! i got 50 free downloads from my Rent ticket. that makes it even more worth it! lol
Native may go with me to see Rent. we'll see...lol
Well, I love you all!
OH!!! Just because I didn't have Bible study doesn't mean I can't have my weekly report!
Raincloud: KK (old nickname i had for my sis) and the Jeans are splitting up. ;(
Sunshine: A whole bunch of people from F-world called me this weekend. ;) 'Twas fun.
And now, I leave you.
TTFN,
Chelle

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Offensive

Last night was rough for me. With bad news comes crappy emotions.

Worst part? It's not my pain I feel. I feel the pain I imagine others must have, and I cry for them. Because nothing is wrong with me, it's the ones I love I worry about. And that makes the hurt even deeper.

I wrote a lot. Just to let my emotions out.
The sad thing is, if I posted them here, people would be angry/upset with me. Because the things I wrote about are rarely spoken. It wasn't bad, it's just...the elephant in the room no one talks about.
Truth is people, it happens, and we have to acknowledge that. Otherwise, we'll never get over it. And, it'll happen again and again, and the "elephant" will just grow...until eventually you CAN'T ignore it, and it's hard to get rid of.

*shrugs*

I firmly believe that we have to press on, and somehow deal with those times.

my way of dealing? writing.

so, to prevent more family problems, and to spare people's feelings, my writing will be posted another time. ;)

*hugs* I just hate feeling other peoples pain. Because then I don't know when to stop!!! lol

Lovingly yours,
and one day willing to share my heart,
Chelle

PS I'm praying for you all! Remember:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord. "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future."
-Jeremiah 21:11

PPS I know some will say "We love you anyway, don't be afraid to share," well, trust me, this can wait. ;) i'm dealing with my feelings, and others are dealing with other things...so...now is not the time to share. lol.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Where to go...

I came up with this analogy while I was walking back to my dorm.

I'm swimming in the ocean right now, and I've spotted a few bits of land that look pretty promising for me, but I need to keep swimming and scope out the whole area before I settle on any one "island" or shore.

I'm talking about majors, and jobs, and life decisions. I met with a lady in the Education dept. just a few minutes ago, it was helpful. I am definitely going to see how far I can go with the German stuff, which means I need to take one more test and then start figuring out my classes and such, which I basically know all ready, it just depends if I place out of any more. ;)

So, yeah, I need a psych class for sure next semester...and we'll see how I feel about that.
As long as I'm working with kids, I'll be happy. lol

One thing I have to do no matter what, write. Even if I'm the only one who likes it...lol. though, I hope to get at least one story or something I write out there before my time is up. I have plenty of ideas. It's just a trick of finding time and energy to write it all out. ;)

So, yep. Nap time, then studying, AIM meeting, more studying, and hall gov, and sleep, and then it's tomorrow. lol

LOVE LOVE LOVE,
CHELLE

Sunday, September 16, 2007

Hello All

I'm back by popular demand!
Just kidding.


Nothing really note-worthy has happened, so I didn't quite know what to write.

I did go to the football game this weekend. It was fun, didn't stay the whole time, but it was good. Native and I took the bus over there together, and he had one of those balls with the...i dunno...like a large kooshball almost, anyway, it was green, and he wore it on his head. reminded me of the time we got those as prizes for a band fundraiser and everyone put them on their horns and saw how large they could blow them up. ;)


Good times.


Everyone either loved his green "hair", or looked at him funny. I laughed, it was great to see people's reactions.


Other than that, this weekend has been layed back. Talked to Beagle a lot more than usual. *gleam* that was nice. He sent me TONS, ok, 68, pics from Gerolstein *i think that's how you spell it...* that's where he was for training and such. His dad and grandpa must have gone up there for some sort of ceremony. I don't know. He didn't explain the pics. I'm just assuming. lol


I might post a few of those here. He looks really good in his uniform. *swoon* lol


So, nothing too thrilling. *shrugs* Just life. ;) Which is good. lol

Dein,
Chelle


*i don't get enough hugs any more...someone hug a rock and pretend it's me. ;)*

Friday, September 14, 2007

Crazy College Girls, and A Few Thoughts

Let's start with Wednesday night. Ballroom dancing.
WOW
haha.
SOOOO much fun. But I was exhausted. whew. And my legs are KILLING me now. Like I need bigger thighs...they're going to get bigger now. I all ready ripped a pair of jeans this week. I was just sitting, and I realized there was a small hole!!! *WAH* One of my favorite pairs too. *tears* It always happens. If jeans fit my waist, they're too tight around my thighs and eventually fray/rip/etc. But, when they do fit my thighs, they're a bit loose on my waist...so...i guess I just need to buy some belts. lol
Anyway, it was a lot of fun. We had some crazy dances to learn. I danced with Native almost the whole time, and then they told us to switch partners. Ok, no biggie. Well, earlier, this guy had obviously started hitting on me. He honestly did look familiar, and well, it wasn't awkward, until we were discussing where we could have met, and he came up with that brilliant line, "in your dreams?" *rolls eyes* He didn't actually say it directly. Native came up and asked if he was hitting on me, and I laughed, and then the guy said he was about to ask if I had seen him in my dreams.
Ok, so then, I had to get a new partner. The guy seemed nice enough, I danced with him. *shudder* He does not understand "the bubble". He got WAY too close for swing dancing, was staring at parts of my body he did not need to...and just touched me and rubbed my hands while we danced. yeah, not cool when i JUST met him. I told Native to never let me dance with him again. lol
yeah...i'm sure he's nice, but a really nice guy would not be quite so forward. really bothered me.

I need a sign that says, "Taken", or something. *rolls eyes*

So yesterday...bio exam...38 out of 40!!! YAY!!! *happy dance*
played pool with Native, totally sucked...took a 2 and 1/2 hour nap!!! just what the doctor ordered!!! went to the french fry feed, was totally hyper...and definitely scared some people at dinner, it was pretty funny. and IV was last night...I got emotional.

the talk was about things we want that God denies us, or when we feel angry with God, etc. we watched a clip of this pastor, Rob Bell, it was really cool. he talked about his little boy wanting a certain toy, but he wouldn't get it for him because he knew it wouldn't be fun after a while, and instead got him a great kickball. he related that to how we sometimes want something but God doesn't give it to us, because he has something better waiting.

so, mostly we mentioned that we wanted direction in life, and of course I brought up the Africa situation. i got upset, because I started thinking again about how Beagle isn't very supportive, ok, not supportive AT ALL, about me going there. i guess i get scared sometimes, but i know I can have him and do God's will for me in Africa. it's just hard not being able to talk to Beagle about it right now and plan this out, because he won't hear anything about it, not until we're face to face and it's easier to communicate. which is understandable. but hard.

but, i got better. our ARHD drove a friend and i to the Green Mill afterwards, and we jammed out to VeggieTales in the car. soooo fun. lol
i know i freaked a few people out, they never expected me to be so...crazy. it helped that i had a nap, and caffiene at dinner. *gleam*

OH, at IV I "won" $20 off payment for a fall retreat, so, i guess i'm going! lol. it's over homecoming, but no biggie. i think my ARHD and I are going to bunk together. we can have veggietales sing-alongs all night. HEHEHEHE

all right, Anthropology time!!! and later tonight, IV girls are having a girl's night! make-up (i assume), giggles, food, and Lord only knows what else! lol

Crazy college girl,
Chelle


Thursday, September 13, 2007

French Fry Feed...

Going to the biggest French Fry Feed in the country.

You know, I would have laughed hysterically if someone told me that's what went on up here. It just sounds so...funny! lol

Well, whatever. Time to go gain all my freshmen 15 in 15 minutes!!!!

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

The Joys of Caffeine

*grins*

had some yummy coffee this morning. i was too exhausted to go to art, but I dragged myself out of bed...and that carmel macchiato really did it for me. ;)

i think my body knows what i need. i've been thristy and tired a lot, and the lady at the health center said to drink more fluids and sleep. ;) YAY for listening to my physical urges. HAHAHA

so, definitely helps to have things to do. I don't like running around, but having a goal, or purpose, good stuff.
having nothing to do makes me feel useless and lazy. it's good to have something, accomplish or finish it...and THEN be lazy. lol

Saw my cousin and her baby!!! EEEEEEEEEEEE
SOOOO cute!!!
I sang to her and talked to her, in English and German. ;) hehe
She liked the German more I think. So, if she suddenly has strange tendencies to German things or speaks random phrases, you can thank yours truly. *bows*

Just like if Colton back home makes different animal sounds, you can thank Beagle for teaching him the German sounds animals make. HAHA...so funny. He liked this one book, and Beagle looked at it with him, and it's really just pictures...so Beagle made the animal sounds...you should have seen the poor kid's face. He wasn't not even 2, but he knew something was wrong. I looked at him and came over to find Beagle and him looking at a pic of a frog and Beagle saying, "Quack, Quack," hehe, poor baby. He won't be gender confused, just species confused.

Anyway...be spending a lot of time with Native lately. He got me hot chocolate over at the coffee house and we just talked for hours. It was fun. One of those deep conversations. Sometimes. Sometimes we just reminisced on our childhood and how the old stuff, even before our time, is better than the newer stuff.
And today we studied for Bio. First exam tomorrow! Not too worried. But I am studying, don't panic. ;)
Ballroom club in a half hour too...man...lol
He and I are going to be good buddies, I can tell. Which is nice, it's good to have a guy friend to talk to.

I was trying to get a job pretty much any where, and suddenly I have jobs everywhere. lol. Not really...but the child care center said they couldn't hire me yet, so I said, well, give me some times in spring and I'll schedule my classes around that so I can work. And then I was going to wash dishes this semester at the dining hall across the street. But I think we got confused, and I may now be working further down the road, which won't be cool in winter. Well, it'll be cool, but not how i'd like it, ;)
And the child care lady said she would sign me up "RIGHT NOW"...i wonder if i annoyed her because she really wrote it that way...sorry but i want the job....lol....but i hope she means for spring. So I have things to clarify.

*sigh* And the study abroad fair was today. No one specific to talk about Germany options though. I'm going to have to email the German teacher and ask about it a little. there's a thing in Berlin this coming summer...but I'd rather do that in another year...so i'll see if that's something that's repeated or not...ya know.

I have lots to do, but not too much really at the same time. It's nice. Nothing pressing, just things to look into and think about.

Meeting next week about a degree in teaching German. That'll be good...help me start deciding what to do and all.

oh, so i told momma i'd write about my awkward moment with myself....
i was in the health center, waiting, and just picked up a magazine, i was like, ok, cute guy on cover, should be interesting. it was. i think it was a gay men's mag. i was flipping through it, and everything was just, gay this, gay bars, gay wedding songs...men in underwear...and i thought...hmmm...i shouldn't be reading this! lol
it was just funny. my eyes got kind of big, but luckily no one really noticed. i thought it was funny...i just pick up the nearest mag that looks interesting and suddenly i'm reading about the best gay bars and top songs at gay weddings...*shrugs* maybe you have to be me...

ok, my fingers are tired. lol

Bye for now,
Chelle

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Redemption Installment 2

(I prefer writing in the evening...I feel more...creative....then. ;) This week is crazy, I may not post for real for a while. sorry.)

(this is kind of starting where i left off...she's in the room with her "comrades")

A small white woman approached her first, a few messy strands of red curly hair falling into her smiling face. The woman gingerly wrapped a blanket around Joanne and then sat back and stared at her, kind of like the dark blue captain had done, only this woman’s whole face smiled with her. Joanne fidgeted as the others came forward and surrounded her in a semi circle of wide eyes and eager faces. A bit overwhelmed, she sank further into the blanket the woman had wrapped around her and shrunk against the wall. The others pulled in closer, their bright eyes pouring into her very being.
“Could you all please back up a little bit? I’m getting claustrophobic,” Joanne chirped from behind the warmth of the blanket. Surprisingly, everyone backed up a few feet and sat quietly watching for a few more minutes.
The red head woman who had first approached Joanne spoke first. “So, where are you from?” Her voice was high and cheerful; the kind Joanne found the most obnoxious in the early morning when she wasn’t even sure she should be out of bed.
“I’m from Georgia,” Joanne looked at the faces around her. “Why does it matter?”
“We’re trying to find a pattern, some kind of clue as to why they picked us,” the red headed woman explained. “I’m from Great Britain, but I was born in the US.” She gestured in turn to the others surrounding Joanne. “This is Keiji,” a thin Asian man bowed his head at Joanne. “He’s from Japan. Next to him is Maylin,” a small Asian woman bowed also. “She’s from China. This young man here, Leo, is from Italy,” Joanne blushed as a very attractive boy with dark hair smiled at her. “Tene is from Kenya,” an older black man nodded slightly. “Anja, I assume she’s about your age, is from Russia,” a pretty young woman with blonde hair smiled politely. “Chinue, we’re not sure where she’s from, she doesn’t speak any language we or our captors know,” a black girl sat back a little bit from the group, huddled in her blanket, occasionally looking over Joanne, and then back at the blanket wrapped tightly around her body. “This is Jabari from Pakistan,” an older Middle Eastern man diverted his eyes from Joanne’s. “And my name is Rosemary, like I said, I grew up in the States, but I’ve been living in Great Britain for a few years now.” The red-headed woman smiled cheerfully.
Joanne nodded with raised eyebrows, looking over the mismatched group once more. “What exactly are we doing here then?” This dream was getting complex. She had to wake up soon.
Rosemary leaned in close to whisper. “We’re not quite sure. We’ve tried to figure it out, but they don’t really want to talk to us too much. They’ve told Tene, Keiji, Jabari and Maylin a little, but they really want to talk to Chinue,” Joanne’s gaze floated back to the frail black girl huddled in her blanket. For a moment, their eyes met and held, then Chinue shrank back into herself. “I think they’re close to breaking the language barrier with her. But, I wouldn’t know,” she smiled stiffly. “They hardly talk to Anja, Leo and I.”
“Hold on, who exactly are “they” anyway?” Joanne asked as she tried to piece things together, wondering if she should see a doctor about this weird dream.
“You’d have to ask Jabari or Tene, they know more than any of us,” Rosemary nodded to the two men who were now in deep conversation with one another. Joanne hesitated.
“This is a dream, right?” She muttered aloud. Rosemary put a gentle hand on her shoulder.
“Honey, this ain’t a dream. Trust me. Each one of us struggled with that for a while, but you’ll come to terms with it soon enough.” She offered a smile, but Joanne could tell Rosemary hadn’t quite come to terms with “it” herself.
A little disbelieving, Joanne approached the older men, who abruptly stopped conversing and looked at her inquisitively. She smiled faintly and sat beside them, wrapping her blanket around her shoulders, it seemed the room was getting colder.
“Can I ask you guys something?” The two men nodded silently. Joanne cleared her throat, not knowing what to ask first. “Where are we?”
Jabari and Tene glanced at one another, said something in a language Joanne couldn’t understand, and then Jabari spoke to her, “We’re in an alien space craft.”
Please let my alarm go off soon, Joanne thought, but somewhere deep inside, she was beginning to understand that this was not a dream. She cleared the throat again. “And, um, why do these “aliens” have us on their space craft?” Joanne tried to keep her voice calm, but the realization that she wasn’t dreaming was hard to take. Everything felt too real to even be a realistic dream. This was reality, a dreamlike reality.
Tene whispered something to Jabari who frowned before answering. “We aren’t one hundred percent sure, but we think they’re going to destroy Earth.”
Joanne’s eyebrows shot up and she choked back a laugh. “You’re kidding, right?” She asked, looking back and forth between the two somber men. Obviously, these weren’t the kind of guys to play a cruel joke on a new comer. Joanne sank back, confused, tired, and a bit overwhelmed. Then the door opened, letting in a blast of hot air and three green skinned men, each pushing large carts. Joanne jumped up at their entrance, and the men stopped in the entranceway. The green men and Joanne stared back at one another awkwardly, until she burst out into tears. The three men looked at one another, and one ran back out of the room and down the tunnel. Joanne’s whole body shook with emotion. She pinched herself, the old fool proof way to tell if you’re dreaming, and screamed at the immense pain she caused herself. Jabari and Tene watched her with wide eyes, unsure whether to help her, or shrink away.
Finally, the dark blue captain ran in and began clicking urgently at Joanne who grabbed for his uniform and pulled him to her in an angry rage.
“You get me out of here you freak! You hear me! Get me out!” She screamed at the top of her lungs, making the green men and Jabari and Tene jump back away from her, but she held on tight to the captain’s dark uniform. “This isn’t funny anymore, ok? Take me home!”
The captain clicked and chirped in protest, but Joanne couldn’t find any solace in the strange language. She pushed him back into one of the carts the green men had been pushing, causing him to tumble over backwards, knocking down the cart, landing with a loud bang on the floor. Joanne hesitated, stifling back the tears as she stared at the motionless man before her. The room filled with silence, until the lighter blue man who had spoken English with Joanne before paused casually by the open doorway.
Unblinkingly, he gestured to Joanne, who stumbled forward and around the body of the captain, who was now squirming a bit, and the over turned cart.
“Aren’t you going to punish me?” Joanne stuttered as she followed the man to another room down the tunnel. “I could have killed that man! You should be tying me up to some weird shrink ray, or, or, laser beam, or send me out in a little space pod, or-”
The man held up a hand to silence her. “We have obviously upset you,” he said in that grainy, mechanical voice. Joanne shivered. “We must beg your forgiveness and ask you how we can help you.”
Joanne stared at the man in complete and utter awe. “Forgiveness? What can you do for me?” She shook her head. “I don’t get it. I almost killed your leader, and you’re asking ME for forgiveness?”
The light blue man blinked once, seemingly unfazed by her bewildered questions. “What exactly upset you? We must know that before we can do anything to help you.”

Monday, September 10, 2007

Quick Hello

Today being Monday, it's been busy. But, nothing too horrible, or exciting. lol
Had a Bible study with some girls I've been hanging out with lately. I really like them. It's a fun group, so...YAY...lol
They gave me an idea for something I can do here, sunshine and rainclouds. Highs and lows for the week.
So, here are mine...

Raincloud: I know some people don't want me posting this on my blog, but, it's gotten me down and very upset lately. Some family members of mine are struggling with their marriage, and I'm really worried/afraid. I hate conflict. *shudder* So, knowing there's something wrong and not knowing quite what, and being too far away to do much, it's hard. That's my raincloud.

Sunshine: A little thing, but it really brightened up my day. This random guy passed me on a bike while I was walking back from class last week, I honestly don't know him and have never seen him before, and he smiled and said, "Have a nice day." *grins* That made me feel good. Some random person commanding me to have a nice day. lol

Well, tomorrow is busy too...this whole week really. AND it's Potato Bowl...so I think I'll go to the football game. I think Native is going, he said I should get a ticket...so I suppose I'll go this once. lol

Largest french fry feed coming up! WHOO WHOO
lol

AND...I get to see my cousin, her hubby, and their CUTE little baby tomorrow!!! YAY
SOOOOOOO excited.
And it's cooling down up here! *SQUEAL*
Going to get some good use out of my winter clothes yet!!!
I was definitely getting down this weekend, but having things to do really helps. I think I get depressed when I feel there's nothing to do. It's kind of funny, if it won't get me any where in the long run, it won't entertain me for long. I try playing stupid computer games...still bored, still slightly depressed. Though, I'd rather not read my West. Civ. book...lol...i still need some at least remotely productive, like writing, or coloring a picture for somebody. ;)

In the mean time, I have to pick movies for my AIM meeting tomorrow, and get stuff ready for class in the morning.


Lovingly yours,

Chelle
By the way, today was free hug day, hope everyone gave/received a hug!!!
Here's one from me: *hugs all around*

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Redemption Installment 1

My story to redeem myself in my families eyes. ;)

Monday morning, August 21, 2007, at approximately 6:34 and 30 seconds, the ship landed at the docking site. All was quiet along the street as the Myantides quickly began the tedious work of extracting the specimen from its habitat.
By 6:34:45 the specimen was safely aboard the craft and the droid was ready to be inserted into the habitat. But the Myantide captain shut down the operation. There would be no need for a droid this time. The specimen’s habitat would not last to see its absence. 6:34:52, the ship was back in space again, the crew preparing for demolition.
At precisely 6:35:00, Joanne’s alarm clock went off.

A strange humming sound filled the room and awoke Joanne. She wondered what time it was, and turned to look at her alarm clock, but it was gone. Everything was gone. Instead of her twin size daybed, she was laid out on a cold stone table, and her mahogany furnishings were gone, replaced by absolute emptiness in a room washed in a brilliant blue light. Either she had been abducted by aliens, or she was dreaming. Figuring it was a dream she relaxed back onto the table and closed her eyes, thinking if she fell asleep, she’d wake up again back in her own room. It should be close to 6:35 by now. Any minute her alarm would go off and she’d get ready for another predictable day of work and school. The cold surface of the table stung her bare arms, and she pondered the strange way dreams could feel so real, and how one could sometimes control their actions within a dream.
Except for the humming everything was silent, and after a few minutes Joanne opened her eyes again and sat up. It must be a dream; aliens would have tied her up or something and be performing all sorts of strange tests on her. She got up off the table and wandered to a steel frame that resembled a doorway. Tentatively, she put her palm against it and pushed. The door swung outward, revealing a large tunnel with a few other doors like this one on each side. She ignored the doors for now, choosing to wander down the tunnel, where a green light was glowing. Her feet were bare, and she was still in her shorts and t-shirt, her typical summertime bed attire. The floor was a bit warm on her toes, and she moved quickly down the passage, feeling bursts of warm air flowing at her from the source of the green light. She wondered if this was the smartest thing to do. But this was a dream, the worst that could happen was she’d wake up and have to go to work.
Loud clicking noises emanated from a room just off the passage. There was an archway for an entrance, and Joanne stopped right in front of it to look around. The room was like something out of Star Trek. No, it HAD to be from Star Trek. Control panels, screens, computers, and a huge window that overlooked the galaxy. A tiny green and blue sphere seemed to rotate in midair outside the ship, and Joanne guessed that was Earth. She tried to remember what she had watched on TV the night before, but Extreme Makeover Home Edition didn’t seem a good excuse for this dream.
The clicking noises were coming from the people manning the craft. Well, they looked like people. They had the same basic shape and body size, two arms, two legs, most appeared to have two eyes, one nose, and a mouth, but their skin was anything but black or white. Iridescent was the best word for it. Some were green, a few blue, but the majority were an iridescent red. Joanne stood staring, wondering at the things her mind could come up with late at night.
A female with blue skin and dark black hair braided down her back spotted her first. She rushed over to a dark blue male dressed in a black uniform with multiple pins and stripes adorning his sleeves. Joanne guessed he was some kind of commander. She took a tentative step into the warm control room, and all movement suddenly stopped as every eye turned to look at her. The heat from the air vents rushed through her body, and she fell panting to the floor, breathing heavily as if she had just run a marathon.
The man in the black uniform pulled her to her feet and dragged her back into the tunnel. He propped her against the tunnel wall and a few clicking noises later, a few green men dressed in white had run off and through another door off the tunnel. Joanne stared blankly at the man kneeling beside her. His eyes seemed to laugh, but his face stayed serious as he looked her over. He was just as human as Joanne was, except the strange deep blue of his skin. She shook her head, feeling the effects of the immense heat wear off, and wondering how much more real this dream could feel.
The man opened his mouth and moved his tongue, producing various clicks and whistles that Joanne just couldn’t comprehend. She blinked rapidly, and shook her head vehemently, trying to wake up. Two large hands gripped either side of her head as she shook it, and the blue man clicked at her again.
“It would be best for you to stay still until you are feeling a bit better,” a mechanical voice came from above her. Joanne looked up slightly to see a man a few shades of blue lighter than the one before her, dressed in a red uniform.
“Oh good, someone in my dream speaks English,” Joanne laughed, but both blue men just watched her silently. She cleared her throat awkwardly. “So, what is this thing anyway?” She gestured to the space around her. “I mean, it’s my dream and everything, but I have no clue what’s going on!” She laughed nervously, looking from one man to the other.
The lighter blue man clicked at the darker one, who eagerly clicked back as he stared at Joanne. The second man nodded and spoke, “The captain wishes to welcome you aboard his ship. In your Earth tongue you might call it, a space craft. If you are feeling better, we would be glad to escort you to where your comrades are.”
“Comrades? I’m afraid I have no idea what you’re talking about.”
“Come with me,” the light blue man clicked at the captain, who smiled slightly, patted Joanne on the shoulder, rose, and went back to the control room where movement had started again. The light blue man began to walk away from Joanne, and she figured she should follow him. She pushed herself up weakly and struggled to catch up. Her body felt strangely heavy and tired, but she made it to the door the light blue man held open for her. “In here, I will not join you, but someone will be along shortly to feed you.” Joanne scratched her head, but entered the lightless room, which was much cooler than the tunnel. The door shut quietly behind her, and a few hushed voices came out of the darkness. A light suddenly turned on, and Joanne was startled to find various lumps scattered across the room writhing and kicking at her feet.
Before she could react, a head poked out of a blanket and shouted, “A newbie!” The other forms grew heads out of their blankets too and wide eyes looked at her in fascination as they came out of their cocoons. These people looked relatively normal, about as normal as a person could be. There seemed to be about nine of them, five men, and four women, a few black, some white, and others Asian. Joanne sighed at the elaborate designs of her mind. She sunk wearily to the floor, wondering how it was possible to need to sleep within a dream.
A small white woman approached her first, a few messy strands of red curly hair falling into her smiling face. The woman gingerly wrapped a blanket around Joanne and then sat back and stared at her, kind of like the dark blue captain had done, only this woman’s whole face smiled with her.

Normal Days...

Well...nothing to really "report". ballroom club just registered yesterday, no dancing yet. so Jen and Native and I just hung out. listened to some phantom of the opera songs and watched moulin rouge. ;) love that movie. ewan mcgregor makes me swoon. he has a lightsaber, and sings, not in the same movie, but still, it's pretty hot.
i still think they need a star wars musical so he can show off his hot voice. ;)


i really don't know quite what to say. everything's going fine. classes aren't too hard. i have a lot of reading, but...it's all pretty straight forward, so far. lol


i need to call in to take that next German exam. so far i don't have to take first year, duh. lol


and for a minor i just have to get through third year really. we'll see. i need to discuss that with my advisor.


i think i'll have to do research next semester for psych. which is fine. my 120 class can help me figure all that out. ;)



so, things are pretty slow. just...doing what i have to do to get by. nothing thrilling.


EXCEPT...


next week Rach, Dan, and Ky are coming!!! BABY!!! *squeal* can't wait!!! lol




all right, i got stuff to do...buy some shirts for some relatives, grandma will reimburse me ;), art stuff before i forget, read Black Death, look over a little of bio...we'll see what else i can think of. ;)




Later days,


Chelle


Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Weighed Down, or Lifted Up?

Today, I picked up my essay quiz from West. Civ. that we did Thursday and looked over the comments. He marked grammatical stuff, and at the bottom he wrote, "not bad, well written" and my score said, 8. Last time I had a 6, so I was like, hmmm, must be out of 10. That's pretty good! I'm getting better! I hadn't been sure of that essay either, so it's good to know I did what I was basically supposed to, though apparently I have a little more to improve on. Then, I look at the top of the quiz where it is printed, "8 points". LIGHTBULB!!! EXCITEMENT!!! I look at my other quiz. "8 points". 6 out of 8, that quiz doesn't even count, and 8 out of 8. *happy dance in chair* And I was worried I didn't know quite how to write these essays!


lol. just had to share that. now i have to keep it up though. not too hard since he basically tells us what the questions will be.



i had to go to Career Services for my psych class, i'll have to write a report on my visit. ugh. it was all right, but i didn't learn too much that i couldn't have from someone else. at least it was short. lol
i guess there's some internships i can look into...i kind of hate that though...looking for something. doing it and being involved and even applying, great, but trying to dig something up. lol
she mentioned a few volunteer and jobs that would look good on a resume for me and such, but i don't have a car, so it's hard.
there's a co-op thing, i can look into that in the spring for the summer. i can do it anywhere too.
first though, i want to find some research i can get involved in here. so i emailed a psych professor, hopefully we'll become best buds and he can help me. lol.

i really do want to try to minor in German and get an education degree or whatever, so i'm going to look through my course book at those requirements and such...

man...this process of getting to everything bugs me. i want to do something! not talk about doing it, or that i could do it later. give me what i can do now, and i'll do it! lol
Little Miss Impatient. ;)

so Chelle is tired. i'm happy, but it feels like i have a lot to do. i really don't, but...i make it hard on myself. ;)

The explorer,

Chelle

PS I will probably post the first part of my redemption-ness this week. ;)



Monday, September 3, 2007

Happy Monday! *whoa...did i just say that?*

Guess what? I did my own laundry today. And nothing changed colors. *bows* And you didn't think I could do it. lol
Doesn't exactly take a rocket scientist. *sorry daddy...;)*


Been working a little, relaxing some more. ;) Writing like there's no tomorrow of course. I think I'll go do my "redemption piece" we can call it. That way I can post the first part soon. ;)


Happy Monday everyone!!! WOW...a happy monday...kind of an oxymoron, eh?


Writing too much,

Chelle

Oh!!! and guess what? I found a new anime to watch!!! It's SOOOOOO cute! This hot, rebel like guy has to take care of a little girl...oh man...lol. I love watching a tough guy be moved by an innocent little girl. YAY!!! *Mel, check it out on veoh, it's called Aishiteruze Baby*


Today called for 2 pics. ;)

Sunday, September 2, 2007

Annoying

You know what's annoying? It always sounds like someone is tapping on my door. So then I get up and open the door, and no one is there. But what if someone is there and I don't get up? You know? lol

And at dinner tonight, no, first on the WAY to dinner, some frat boys had music playing REALLY REALLY LOUDLY, and I liked the song, but it was ANNOYING!!! ACK...i'd love it if my life were a musical and music played in the background behind me all the time or something...but that was uncalled for. reminds me of the guard girls and the loud rap and hip hop filling the band hall. *shudders*
Then when I was eating, I guess this group of guys were trying to be cool because they started having a very loud conversation, and though I ignored it, sometimes it was hard to and they laughed ridiculously loudly and often...and they obviously wanted a reaction out of me because they'd look back occasionally at me, but I just had this look on my face that must have said words I would never verbalize, because they always looked away again. ;) But goodness, they were so stupid! And cute, but, that just made me sick, I hate attractive guys who act like 2 year olds. ICK
You think you leave them behind in highschool...but nope...


Another inescapable thing, allergies. You can escape the heat or the cold, leave behind really annoying people...haha...but allergies, at least for some of us, are always there. STALKERS!!!
i dunno what it is that makes my lungs give up though. It's quite annoying. Especially when I can't walk up the stairs to my room without feeling out of breath. And it's not like I'm "out of shape". It was like this in the middle of guard two years ago, I just coughed and couldn't catch my breath. Humph. Hope you find that medicine's name Momma, I need some drugs. ;)

Good weekend though. Went to an apartment for a small barbeque, which was really good!!! One of the guys is a great cook. We watched The Incredibles and Robin Hood. I forgot how great that movie was! I need to get it.

So, now I've been working on studying and such. Ok, mostly I've been a writing fiend. There's this application on facebook and I'm obsessed with it, because you write and add to people's stories...obviously my kind of thing. lol

I need to update my Muffin story. And I started the story I'm going to post here, but I want to get a little more before I post. It will hopefully redeem me from the anger of my family after my whole America rant. ;)

All right, biology calls! Yay sugars and carbohydrates! Hey...i could have some while i learn about what they're doing...how wonderful...*picks up bag of candy* "Hello biology project." *grins* Yes, i've gone insane.



Goofy,

Chelle

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Army Boy


Hehe...got a pic of Beagle from one of his relatives. That's his grandpa with him in the pic.

Oops...Haha

Last night was crazy. Wow, that sounds bad. lol




I ended up going with Native and Jen ,*the girl i met at the hypnotist*, to see a movie. It was fun.

Then we hung out with her roommate and two other friends of theirs at their apartment. We played Apples to Apples *YAY*, which wasn't as fun as it was at my going away party, but it was entertaining, and we watched Finding Nemo. hehe
it's funny, a lot of people here remind me of people back home, and one guy there really reminded me of...a friend back in F-world. "Dragon". haha. If he ever read this, he'd appreciate that nickname i think. ;)

So, I ended up coming home after 3. yes, AM. YAY. lol

what can i say, i'm wild....*rolls eyes*

now mother, don't freak out. these are good people. we watched Finding Nemo! how bad can we be! lol

but i think they want me to come to a barbeque their having today, and it sounds fun...but Grandma had planned on making krumkaka with me i think. uh oh. i'm going to call her and see if i should just pop by to make cookies for a while. ;)

let's see...oh, well...i didn't get to bed until 4:30 am yesterday. I felt bad because i had told Beagle i'd wake him up, around 10 our time, and obviously it was quite past that time. so we talked a little bit, i mostly layed on my pillow and was lazy. lol

OOO...his dad emailed me! YAY!!! It was in reply to the letter I wrote their family. In German thank you very much. All of it. *beams with pride* Not that it was amazing, but it must have been understandable. ;)

class yesterday was ok. Art was crazy. we did gesture drawing, which is pretty much the opposite of what we've been doing. it was fun though. besides my charcoal pencils dying on me. lol

we did sketches of people which i love of course. i did one i really really liked. it doesn't look as good as i remember now...lol. but it's not too bad. obviously the head needs work...haha...but i like the rest of it. ;)







all right...labor day weekend...better get a move on. i need to stop sitting in front of my laptop. ;)



Love,

Chelle
This reminds me, I need to find someone to go see Rent with me at the Chest. Fritz!!! I want to go, but not alone. ;)